Sleep didn't happen for me tonight. That's happening a lot these days. I wake up, I wonder why I bothered. I fake almost everything you see. Smiling is a reflex for me. Laughing is a reflex for me. I practice being happy. I'm good at it. It's just that people disappoint me so fucking much that it sickens me. It's not being misunderstood that ( Read more... )

New Years would have been perfect. My friends' cozy little apartment, plunged into darkness via a blown transformer (so bright--lit up the sky for miles.) Candles. MDMA. LSD. Cannabis. N20. Paul came along, my wry, introspective confidante. He brought a friend--here's where the trouble started ( Read more... )

...Legend of Zelda second quest is some questionable bullshit. Seriously.

Meanwhile I am involved in an experiment. I will determine a few things which I desire to know, and the knowledge will potentially aid in the development of comfort and success. Just another day...

Eeech. And I thought playing with one heart was tricky. How to manage a menage...

...got that out of my system. Anyway, cut that last post short 'cause the topic of the post walked through the door. Maybe I'll come back to that one. Anyway ( Read more... )

So I hit a patch of black ice one fine midnight in Oregon City, only when I hit it I was already recovering from a hydroplane from a puddle before. So I was sideways. So it was a surprise to me that I prevented the vehicle from flipping over. I did, however, slap the front of the frame repeatedly against the pavement, blowing shocks, struts, ( Read more... )

So anyway. I fried my brick phone, along with the SIM card. So email me your numbers people, and get the word out to everyone who isn't on this silly website. Anyway ( Read more... )

A good night spent in Keizer, a city planning 101 project gone horribly wrong, somewhere in the vicinity of Salem, the jolly old state capitol. I could describe the people I hang out with there, but nothing I could say would do them justice. It's fun, is all I'm saying ( Read more... )

Okay. Aside from the one incident, I've never had a migraine in my life. Now I've had two in a month. If my thyroid gives out I'll be just like my mother. I am not liking this shit one bit, I know it's partially stress, but that just makes me feel worse, since stress is mostly affective feedback from not dealing with your own shit. Anyway, this ( Read more... )

Why do we have a public education system? To be a healthy, informed, functioning adult, there is a basic level of understanding of the physical universe which is required. Certain social realities must be taken for granted, certain kinds of respect for others need to be fully rationalized. But the goal is not particularly out of the realm of reason ( Read more... )