i pierced my ear...
it's on my anti-tragus.
it's sexy.

let's just say...
i've been there. and it is no fun.
it's acutally quite sickening.
not to mention completely depressing.

and i don't really know...
i just know i hated being there.
and it probably sucks for him too.

ick.

there's just something about that which fills me with digust.
probably because the same thing happened to me
so i can identify with it.

but gawd... ew.

so i've been in seattle for a while ( Read more... )

i'm moving away tomorrow.

i serious can't WAIT until school starts... it is going to be SO FUCKING AWESOME to move to SEATTLE and have all that FUN!!!!

i don't think i could be anymore excited!!!!

i love it already.

secretly i hate people. like... hXc hate them

it's like a dream right now.
and i'm trying not to let it go to my head.
and it's trying to take root in my heart.
but i'm trying to stop it because i'm afraid.
and i can't help but worry.
it's just like last time, only it feels better.
it feels more real.
and i hope it works this time around.
i just don't want to get hurt like last time.

i hate how many times my world has crashed around me...
and i hate how no matter how hard i try it just keeps going futher and futher down a dark hole...
but... i am trying. that's what's important... and someday, someone will finally love me for reals and will want to stand by me no matter what...

someday... i won't scare you.

is there really life after love or is this just an incredibly cruel farce?