i really hate that guy.
he makes me acutally want to kill another human being.
it really shouldn't bother me.
but i hate it when people assume that about me.

i hate my existance sometimes.

i really wish i didn't have to do things like that.

i really wish he didn't affect me like that anymore.

i think i say i love you too much.

or else i said it too much.
because it stopped feeling important.
and now it doesn't mean much to me unless there are tears and blood.
but tears and blood never come with i love you.

so i think i killed i love you.

love is dead.

it's not that i don't want you in my life anymore... it's just that i don't want to give you any fuel to say mean and nasty things about me like you were. that's all.

i just love how my life is ( Read more... )

why can't i just move on?

I really hate him right now.

I really wanted to hug Brooke last night.

I really just wish this whole thing never happened because I'm just...

Not ready.

I feel so betrayed. Unloved, unimportant (to him).

He's such a hypocrite.

Guess who is totally good enough for University of Washington..?

Amelia is. She's been accepted.

Who's NOT a complete idiot now, bitches? Huh?

It pays off to be a pessimist, huh? I totally feel AWESOME and I love how I feel totally breath takingly amazing...

I'm so cool.

secretly i miss him. i miss him so much. and i'm such a bitch for ruining it. it was the best thing i ever had and now it's gone because i suck.

and everything is dead inside of me. or it's dying. i hate it.

i hate myself so much.

I'm so sick of people who say that they care, but in all honesty they don't give a flying fuck. They turn all stupid and crap and they don't care about anything but themselves. I'm so sick of having INCREDIBLY selfish aquaintences. It's hard for me to even understand how I never noticed it before... Maybe it's a new development..? I don't know ( Read more... )