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update on me
I really dont feel like I can do this for much longer. Since the beginig of the month I have cut 17 days..... And I am ment to be stopping. I told myself and Chris that by the 1st of July I will have stopped cutting myself. I really want that to happen ( Read more... ) -
I just invite bad things to happen.....
So me and my frends went out 2 nights ago and i thought tonigh is going to be a good night........ How wrong could I have been!
Recently chris has asked me to give him the letters i have written to him since we broke up. Some of them are really mean and some are really like lovey dovey. I have decided he can have them. He wants me to give him one ( Read more... ) -
New
Sorry to anyone who self injures that are reading this, it might be a little triggering i dont know, sorry.
So it was my birthday a few days ago. Had some fun. Went shopping, watched rugby, and went out drinking with friends...... Ohyeah and I tried to kill myslef. would have totaly worked if Chris did not phone an ambulance to come and stop me. I ( Read more... ) -
Bleh
Cut everyday and throw up and really dont want to stop.
I am finding that it is better to lie to the ones closest to you than face the truth.
I dont like fighting, I want to give up. -
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I fell like everyone that I love walks away from me...... family, friends, boyfriends. And everytime I blame myself. I always think what could I have done different, what could I have done to stop them walking away.... when my grandfather left i blamed myself, when so many of my friends awalked away I took it all out on me, I cut myself, hit myself ( Read more... ) -
Fallin back
It's been a while since I have wrote to this but I feel I need to. I had a good year up untill this summer. At the begining of this summer I was happy, I had a boyfriend that I loved with all my heart and a best friend and now I dont have either. This summer I have lost my bestfriend over something so stupid and me nad my boyfriend broke up. I miss ( Read more... ) -
New found confidence
So it has been a while. About 48 weeks or something. Alot has happend in that 48 weeks, good and bad things. Like I turned 18 and I had everyone that I wanted there, but then 4 weeks later I found out my uncle had cancer. He had lung cancer, two tumers on his spine, it worked its way into his brain and the his bones. He died on new years day at 2. ( Read more... ) -
stuck in a rutt
i am stuck in a rutt!!! i am going back to school in a one day and just before the summer me and two people who use to be my best friends got into a majior fight and now i am known as the bitch of my school year. the truth is that it really gets to me and i dont even know what i have done to deserve this. i was always known as the quiet one who ( Read more... ) -
not enough!!
we all know what it is like to loose people, but what if one of these people where like your family? You don't get any notice or a reason, did not die, just left. i think it is worse if they are so horraible to you and they stick around....reacently one of my best friendsas have stoped talking to me and i dont know why, no reason, no expalnation ( Read more... ) -
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I cut myself for a long time.. i started when i was 16 and i am 18 now in a few months so it is not that long but at the time i was going through a bad patch. I had exams and i guess that i had no control of waht was going on in my life so i used self harm as a way of feeling alive and in control i guess. it realesed so much fustration and sadness ( Read more... )