theres a world outsider her window everywhere the wind blows everywhere's amanda's dream

went to romania. got sick on the way. celebrated my birthday in a pub in london. thought i was prepared but i wasnt. got attached to the kiddies, broke my heart to leave them. wanted to cancel my ticket and stay. decided i'll be back next summer. cant adjust to ( Read more... )

it really annoys me that now even after high school has been over for at least a year that people are unable to pick up the fucking phone and call me about volleyball. when did being a starter make you guys fucking volleyball gods??? last time i checked, we were all on the same team. assholes

if life isnt about humanity, then tell me what its about because id love to know. money and power arent what life is about, it cant be.

i may be taking a semester off because i cant afford any schooling right now. i saw pirates tonight with jamie, yummy. samantha dwyer tried to friend me on facebook, not sure if thats supposed to make her feel like a good person or something. im not sleepy but spin class is in less than 5 hours. fuck it.

play like a champion, no excuses

fuck being sober. booze up or lose out thats our motto for the weekend

quite possibly a lot more frustrating than anything recently. brittany thinks its super sweet to have sex while shannon and i are in the room. i have a test every friday at 9am and the past two weeks i've been awake or woken up or kicked out of my room. last night my alarm was turned off and i missed my first two classes today because of it. wow ( Read more... )

ive had this really big crush on my friend steve's best friend john. he's transferring here this coming semester from southern. to stay or not to stay.

how hard is it to leave me alone when i ask you to? stop making this so damn difficult

i hate how every time i get drunk now i end up upset, crying, angry, and hurt over matt. fuck this feeling i hate it and wish it would go away. and the worst part is that i wish i didnt love him so i wouldnt have to hurt this much. awesome

you know i dont think i've ever spent this much time alone until college and i've been an only child my whole life. im not totally sure if its because i want to be alone or because i dont like most of the other people im around or because home is just that much better. time alone has become like oxygen to me and i cant do without it. i hate that i ( Read more... )