Okay wow things really suck. I was having a good week and I was actually feeling happy and "myself" again. But now, I think I've lost my friend to her boyfriend. You know, I always thought friends were stronger than guys... but my experience has proved me wrong time and time again. Or maybe it's just me, I mean I know lots of girls (and i guess ( Read more... )

Another reason why i love amber- in the context of us talking about micah ( Read more... )

I am having the best fucking weekend! Yesterday, we went to the football game, which sucked cuz Bluffton sucks just as bad as HH. But it was cool to see everyone again. And we saw kyle there. And i got to hear a message he left melissa so the evening had its high points ( Read more... )

My brother (john the chink for those of you that dont know) has noticed ive been a little down lately ... (down is a word for a good day). And when I told him who was responsible for my "lack of smiles n pokes" he went into this loving lecture about how i am loved and i just need to say "fuck you" to the asshole that has decided not to be freinds ( Read more... )

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! You know when bad things happen to good people, its sad, and then when nothing bad happens to those assholes out there, it pisses you off? Well it turns out, one of the world's dick heads got what he deserved! FINALLY! OMG Jessica just told me, and I am thrilled! Maybe its not such a good thing that I'm happy that something ( Read more... )

Have you ever watched someone begin to cry? It's the most painful sight in the world. Their eyes get red and you can see the water building up. And then they blink and the tears fall, like raindrops off a leaf. They run silently down the cheek. And you just want to hug them. Take the pain away, give the life. The tears run onto your shoulder from ( Read more... )

Im lost. I have nothing. Everytime I see him or think of him or hear his name, I cry. I can't help it everything hurts. It all ended so quickly I don't know what to do with myself. I've never felt so broken and alone in my life ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. Maybe Ive got insomnia. I know that sounds odd considering that its only like 1 AM, but I have to get up in 6 hours and I've been trying to sleep for 3 or 4 hours. My body feels like It's had too much caffeine, I feel stretched out and like a zombie. My arms feel... weird and so does the rest of me. And I'm not happy. But i couldnt ( Read more... )

So school started today and I'm already ready to bash my head in. I hate school. But I think HATE might be an understatement. So Micah's in my school again. And he's stupid. And I'm sick of people. And he stole my new kid. (but thats another story) And i kinda sorta got him to agree (not really admit, but agree to the fact...) that hes in love with ( Read more... )

I hurt everything I touch, everything I come into contact with. I ruin everything, I need to be locked far away from everyone else so that no one has to feel the pain and suffering I bring. I am a life ruiner. I am dangerous, I kill others, make them bleed and die... I need to be exterminated, the world needs to be rid of me. I need to leave, to ( Read more... )