I have GOT to stop giving other people so much of my precious energy. That's it. The end.

i took a bath with my cappucino tonight.  happy happy joy.

im so tired of cold weather i could fling poo at a tree.  or did i already do that?  ugh.  i'm completely fed up with shit this week.  i could never be a nurse.  (or worse, an aid).

beanworld was pleasant tonight.  the young punk teenage girls are alright... and the male manager is lazy, ( Read more... )

• ugh.  i'm glad there are no fiery pits of hell to burn in.  i met a guy.  he's ugly.  sweet, funny, smart, animal-loving, clean... and ugly.  
  
• i can not wait to go hollistering friday with katie.  i need eye candy in a bad, bad way.
  
• the bucket list is quite the movie.  morgan freeman and jack nicholson are probably my favorite actors.  i think i'll ( Read more... )

• katie... i hate to love her.  crazy crazy crazy.  hollister friday night wheeee!
  
• interview tomorrow... dont know if i want the job.  i wont give her a definite either way until the following day.
  
• carlo makes the best omlettes in the world.
  
• hrm new guy on myspace.  older than my typical range.  just talking is fine for now.
  
• BO-ring...

This is how it works
you're young until you're not
you love unitl you don't
you try until you can't

... today was fucking amazing ...

woke up--had coffee--did the firm: full body minus lunges and pushups

spent half an hour with the catcher in the rye

drove Siss to the corner

took a bubble bath in avon french lilac bain mousse.

Called and canceled my ( Read more... )

•  i will be working tomorrow even if sony my ulcer of an employer calls to let me know that they are not in need of my services.  toni's a saint.
  
• ditch has not really been herself since her spay.  earlier this morning she tapped me with her paw and wanted to be petted.... by me. i may learn to like the little bald cat yet.
  
• i'm going to be crazy bored ( Read more... )

 "On The Radio"
Regina Spektor

This is how it works
It feels a little worse
Than when we drove our hearse
Right through that screaming crowd
While laughing up a storm
Until we were just bone
Until it got so warm
That none of us could sleep
And all the styrofoam
Began to melt away
We tried to find some worms
To aid in the decay
But none of them were home
Inside ( Read more... )

hrmph.  i'm congenitally missing a wisdom tooth.  just one, mind you.  Who the hell has an odd number of teeth--naturally--?  i guess i do.  i should start a club and be the only member.  fucking weirdo.  the good news is that none of them have surfaced, so i get to be put under for the procedure (i guess it's also good that i'm missing a tooth ( Read more... )

 I've been lying to myself for so long that I hardly know what the truth is.

I love you.  Shit, most of you.  I love me.  I say these words, i write them, i feel them, but do I act on them?

I DESERVE BETTER
I deserve to be loved in return.
I deserve to be spoken to with respect.
     (these things i had to have beaten into my stupid, numb fucking ( Read more... )

 
The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak.

Hans Hoffman