man it's been awhile since i wrote in this thing... yea i just thought about the one thing that i'm truely afraid of and now i'm like thinking and terrified. so i can't fall asleep. this has been a wierd day anyway. something is really wrong with me bc the whole day i've been having some really wierd out of body experiences. like my head just ( Read more... )

so it's been awhile since i've updated this sober... well the summer is almost over. can't wait for it to finally die. summer has pretty much sucked. the begining was good. parties every week. work was good. police shit was good. friends were all good. then. then that damn thing happened n i punched the fuckin truck. was out of work. parties stoped ( Read more... )

wow havent done this in awhile. lol. o well. whatever. yea... right now. i've been drinkin since 5. got a bottle of bacardi limon. it been in the freezer since 3 yesterday. it's so fuckin nice. my parents have been gone for 2 days now. they come back 2morrow. my neighboors are watching my house to see whos coming over n what i'm doin. happy they ( Read more... )

shit. damn man. im so like tewected. i dunno who w to sleep spell right nwo. haah. o sju st satedtrted to erad what i was wrtiging., ncikc. ahah. sje i just got hoem from crawyhforfd/ s/ weed. and smirdnoff. i went spee d lemit. so all good. ii know 2040 40. mph , shit. haha. damn cast.lllllllllllllllll i just ead what kacokie j not k wroit n sa ( Read more... )

so yea. havent done this shit in awhile.... lets see. broken hand. blah blah blah. one more fuckin week of having this cast on. it fuckin smells! i wanna cut the fucker off. went to the fuckin doc n he said i can work but cant use my hand and have to do light work. my bose said go home. so im out of work. n probably not getting paid bc the doc is ( Read more... )

yea so i'm not writing a lot bc it's kinda annoying. seein i can only use one hand... friday went to work. got pissed off. broke my hand. snaped. went to the hospital. n yea. now i have a cast. n it's fuckin annoying. errr... went to the fair twice. hung with joe n seanna... started to run again. i suck really bad. can hardly do 4 miles. fuckin ( Read more... )

so yea... i'm bored... just got back from the high school's graduation. wow. it was boring. but it was cool seeing everyone leave. got some pics of friends. hung with nicci, jigga j, and gabby... what else 2day. worked. that's it... last night there was a party. like real short notice. i go out and get some stuff. go to farmingdale to get ice cream ( Read more... )

so lets see. i'm bored of course. i'm on this piece of shit... what's happened in the past week... took the chief's exam for the monmouth county police. that was a dumbass test. the questions were so easy. and the personality questions. haha. do u agree or disagree that in today's time it is ok to go home after work and smoke a joint? hahaha fuck ( Read more... )

yea i haven't updated this in awhile... i gotta pee. haha. i dunno... so yea. wow a lot has happen.... no more school. been working like everyday. work is kinda fun. when i'm not with bruno its great. i'm tryin to figure out a way to get him fired. it's not working that well. i wanna make that fuckers life horrible. the piece of shit. besides that ( Read more... )

to any readers of my journal. probably no one. this entry really isn't meant for anyone to read. i just need to talk to myself. and i find that writing in here helps me. bc if i just speak to myself i get confused on who said what and when. so if u wanna read something else read the 2 entries below. unless if u want to read my constant random ( Read more... )