But I'm not!!! Why does all this crap bother me!! I don't mind that Chase and Kelsey are going out that isn't why I'm upset, but yet I can't figure out why I am upset. I suppose it could be that I'm jealous of Kelsey. Maybe subconsciously somewhere I'm jealous that she has a b/f and I don't. I think that's it. *sniff* Why am I such a horrible ( Read more... )

I'm having a much better day today. Jonathan really cheered me up last night, he's such a sweetie. I talked to Kelsey about all the stuff I needed to talk to her about and it got fixed, so I suppose everything is going good. I'm starting to like Jonathan again. He's the only person I know who can make me smile and laugh when I'm in one of my ( Read more... )

I just talked to jonathan for like 10 minutes and already I'm in a better mood. He always makes me happy when I talk to him, he can make me smile and laugh no matter what kind of mood I'm in. Apparently I make him happy too. He's such a sweetie.

...I'm having a really bad day...

So I go on my food alteration tomorrow. I'm kind of excited. To help keep me motivated my mom bought me a GC t-shirt in the size I hope to be when I get done. I love my GC T-shirt almost more than my computer. Its black and it has the calligraphy GC on the front and a black and white picture of the band on the back. I can't wait to get down to ( Read more... )

Last night I went to Fitz with Chase. It was pretty cool. We heard some really good bands. CHase and I were having some kind of contest as to who could get the most free stuff. He won. WE got lost on the way there that was an adventure. I love going places with him its always interesting. NExt time though we need more people like Eacey and ( Read more... )

I want to tell chase about the old me. The me in my spiral. The me that is slowly coming back to haunt me. I've been feeling all of those old feelings again and i don't know how to make them go away. I wrote chase a note that told him how scared I was to lose him as a friend. I told him that I was feeling the old me come back and he was ( Read more... )

I told him...sort of. The whole story in all its details: Today I started working VBS. Well after VBS I asked Chase if he could give me a ride home. I made sure and asked him if he was going anywhere else and he wasn't. Well stephanie patterson was taking care of this baby and she started crying (the baby) and so we went back to the nursery to ( Read more... )

Well Yesterday was THE day. I went to warped tour. It was awesome!!!! I got to see Thrice, The Starting Line, Simple Plan, Mest, the Used, AFI, the Dropkick Murphys, and Bowling for Soup. I was in four mosh pits and Chase crowd surfed. It was so awesome!!!! I also got a major sunburn on my face. But it was worth it. Man it was SO hot ( Read more... )

Well I went to church yesterday morning. Then after church Chase and I went with Kelsey and Keith to the mall. chase and I got our warped tour tickets. Then we hung out at the mall for a while then went to guitar center. Kelsey and I had to be up at church at 4:45 for a big sister meeting, and Chase and Keith stayed there to practice. Well after ( Read more... )