Okay last night was bad ass!! I called Alecia.. and told her she should come over since her step dad was at work... so her and Kayla came over and kicked it with us.. we ordered pizza and like ate pretty much all of it... GOD WE ARE PIGGS!! Then.. Christian called and I said come on over.. and he called me back about 15 mins later asking us what ( Read more... )

its funny how the same person who hates me loves me SO much HAHAH

**sigh** so.. I'm really depressed... I'm fighting to cut hardcore... Laura wants to have a 3 some pretty bad it seems.. and it makes me feel like I'm not enough... or I'm not good enough.. and it freaks me out.. and makes me afraid of things.. and makes me think things I shouldn't think. Tonight is really hard for me.. I want to cut so bad it ( Read more... )

Well this sunday monday and tuesday has been different.. Laura came over Sunday night to go with me to my appt. Then when Todd Kristina and I took her home she wanted me to meet Sav.. but Sav never showed up.. and I just ended up staying the night there.. then on Tuesday I went to amptgaurd with her and got to meet Sav and Sav's brother. Sav is ( Read more... )

Hmm I'm upset today... kind of pissed if you would say.. I'm tired of waiting online.. all day.. and all night for someone.. who never really gets on.. and they said they have a HUGE net life.. sheyeah right! I'm sorry but I have a bigger one if I can manage to be on it pretty much 24/7 which yes is pretty fucking sad.. I need a life.. and fast.. I ( Read more... )

Hmm.. I'm not feeling much better since I went to the Dr's I had a slight fever today.. I can barely keep my gatorade in me.. I can barely even drink it, it makes me so sick to my stomach.. I have no appitite.. Mom is prolly going to take me back to the dr's today... joy... **rolls eyes** I don't wanna go back.. my depressed mix for media player ( Read more... )

Well here I am.. feeling so fucking weak its not funny.. I went to this urgent care place.. in south jordan.. (its very fucking hidden mind you) and I had no infections in my pee my blood pressure was out of wack.. so they said I was very dehydrated.. so they stuck an IV in me and put some fluids in me.. they also gave me an anti nausea medicine ( Read more... )

Okay so my mom was going to make a dr's appt. for me "first thing in the morning" right.. well she didn't... she decided to fucking sleep in and let me be in pain.. I went to bed fucking early so I could go.. BLAH.. sometimes that woman really pisses me off. BLAH... I so don't feel good.. last night I had a fucking temp of 102.6 my side is starting ( Read more... )

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Hmm.. okay.. so today totally sucks..I'm so depressed its not funny... I want to cut so bad.. and I'm tired of people getting mad at me for doing so.. Life pretty much sucks... I'm never going to see Laura.. and this is why I don't like to date girls who live more than an hour away from me that doesn't have a car..She always tells me she'll be back ( Read more... )