Two weeks? It seems like more than that! Just came on to say I'm still alive. I have hardly even been online these past two weeks. Then just to check my mail. Not even a chance to reply to most. Things have just been incredibly chaotic-worrying about my mother, med changes, housing, trying to plan around them, and organize visits with Chelsea ( Read more... )

I'm so sleepy, I don't know what I'm gonna write. But I think it's about time I let everyone know I'm still alive ( Read more... )

When I first started going down on the Effexor, I started having little swings, leaning more toward down moods. But then I started having more little hypomanic episodes. The lower I got on dosage, the bigger the swings got...the highs higher, and the lows lower. I thought this was weird, since it's supposed to be an antidepressant, not a mood ( Read more... )

One day I have drowning ideations. The next I ( Read more... )

This is pretty hard, trying to type. I have to try and use a different finger to type my e's, c's, and d's. I was trimming the back of my hair last night with a hair razor, and decided to slice the tip of my middle finger of my left hand, pretty good ( Read more... )

I've had stuff I wanted to update about, and to read your posts. But my internal clock seems to have gone haywire (normal, for most people), and I can't stay awake past 10:30 pm. Since nighttime is pretty much the only chanc I have to get on, I haven't gotten anything done in forever. I just can't stay awake. Maybe I'll have to start trying to ( Read more... )

I spent my entire day shredding old junk mail (I tend to procrastinate), and my shredder kept plugging up. So a lot of that time was spent digging out plugs. It was too hot (116) to go anywhere to see fireworks, so we watched them on tv. Fireworks aren't what this holiday is about, anyway ( Read more... )

How can you love somebody so much, and can't stand them at the same time?

I see my doc tomorrow. Good timing.

After spending last weekend literally in prison, cuz Naomi didn't dare go out, and I didn't dare leave her, and when we finally did get out to go to Circle K so she could get a fountain drink and being so scared she was visibly shaking all over; after Adia was crying uncontrollably, because she didn't want to leave her mommy to stay at her friend's ( Read more... )

Ok. It's 4:33 am. I gotta get this done before I pass out ( Read more... )