So today I feel like I need to vent about something but I'm not entirely sure what. I have to wear reading glasses now and they just don't suit me I look like a right wazzock but thats nothing new.

meh who am I kidding it's probably pmt I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry

I can't decide if i'm angry or upset right now ( Read more... )

why did she have to do it????

that is all

i need to rant about it but its too much right now

meh it was pmt last time just for the record ( Read more... )

it must be pmt again because i feel really shitty today. i wanna shout n scream n cry n kick a few people

well theres a few things i want to rant about today. but dont worry i have not yet had another episode of where i just want to die because at the moment im on my way still... plus its christmas nearly i gotta at least pretend to enjoy life

anyway first things first.. im still loking for a job in worcester so i can move. i am not having much luck ( Read more... )

right i say started i got started realised what i want and then it came to a standstill

i need to go back to worcester, i liked it there its a safe place to live and i have some of the greatest friends there. as soon as i move one of them says i can move in and stay as long as i need. all thats missing is said job, i must have applied to ten now and ( Read more... )

well i dont feel as bad as i did last time i posted, but im still down, i still av the odd best way to kill myself  thought, but i know this isnt the answer, and i know that not everything that makes me miserable is my fault, there are just some aspects of this world i cant change no matter how hard i want to or how hard i try to. i know i am going ( Read more... )

i cant hide behind the wackyness for much longer, i cant pretend im happy much longer, its a front that sometime soon i know i will explode. im only writign this because i cant sleep, i lay in bed tonight and thoughts of killing myself just popped into my head, so now i know its bad, but i dont know what to do, if i seek professional help then ( Read more... )

i dunno maybe it was just a phase, dont get me wrong i still hate verything about myself that i listed but its just not so big a problem today, i dunno i guess i realise im not the most important thing in the world, the world doesnt revolve around me and my issues and insecurities, so despite the fact that i hate myself and i have so many issues, ( Read more... )