I had to download the whole program again but I have AIM back on my laptop. yay for me

Well.... I'm fucking bored

Never Again.... It's Time ( Read more... )

Nobody forgot my birthday so this isnt like sixteen candles at all. Im 20 today and im 100% completeley alone ( Read more... )

I dont like having to say that Im 19... it makes me sound like such a child..... well add that to the list of things i currently resent about my life

Final Thought: Hatred bleed in strems from my tatered wounds and I cant find the bandage

-Paul

he doesnt call me.... i predicted that. like i said, if he wasnt going to try in our romantic relatinship why would he try in any other? but i guess hes happy..... and thats what matters

Ste gets to be happy...... no offensive but I'm not sure why. I enjoy seeing him happy, I just wish I had more then a taste of what it felt like.

Even fucking Jay gets to have someone and be happy.... mind u, its like his drug dealer or something but still..... hes happy

Final Thought: This is just Fucked up

-Paul

He has the tickets. This whole situation is finally over. He got the tickets and said something to me that i very rarely ever heard from him, thank you ( Read more... )

it's almost like i subject myself to the pain..... he called me last night.... he fucking called me and said that he was sorry it took so long to call, that he was busy...... FUCK YOU..... i told him that i didnt expect him to call so soon..... FUCK YOU...... he asked y and i told him i didnt know. I lied. he didnt call me or go out of his way in ( Read more... )

brad came over. it was nice to actually have a guy around that cares..... but i need to take it slow. i cant rush into anything. we've all seen how that goes. and i really dont want to hurt him