I dont know exactly whats brought me to this state tonight, but this is an anger I thought I left behind me a long time ago. I never thought I'd feel like this ever again after all my therapy and being of my medication (which i've stopped taking again, I'm too strong for that shit anymore), but I have a lust for blood tonight. I went on a walk ( Read more... )

I'm back on the medication... I was so close for going for my dads gun today and ending it all after this shitty week. I don't know how some people will take it, and I'm not sure if holly will understand when I tell her that it was the thought of her that kept me alive... I stood in the door of my parents room, and I remembered her looking down on ( Read more... )

Well damn, it's been quite awhile since i put anything into this lj. Mostly cuz there's not much to complain about now-a-days. 1st, allergies can go to hell. I feel so shitty right now, plus I got a doctors appointment in like 30 minutes so I can get some medicine for my double inner-ear infection. HOW FUN!!!... right. 2nd, thank god I'm finally ( Read more... )

Today was the monday to rule all mondays... the suckiest monday ever. Oh so plain, oh so boring. Birthdays in 3 days, hopefully things will pick up before then. Oh joy... no late arrival day for me tomorrow, all you juniors are with me on this one. Sucks to be us i guess.

Well, its been awhile and i got some time to myself so, y not? Lets update the lj. This weekends been pretty cool really. There's been a couple bumps here and there, I'd probably be going off in here more bout some of the crap, but holly just left so I'm still in a pretty good mood. Friday was holly over here and we just really hung out and ( Read more... )

I got two hours of sleep last night, I just couldn't stop thinking about her...

Today went alright, I'm not missing holly near as much as i did yesterday. I'm still thinking about her all the time, but it doesn't hurt anymore to know we wont be together for awhile. My birthday's comin up in a little bit, I doubt too many people will remember when it is. Whatever, as long as I get what I want for my birthday, I'll be happy. ( Read more... )

Nothin's really been goin on lately. I really think for once this is a good thing, just have some time to get back down to earth. Only problem is, im head over my heels in love... most people hear me talk about love a lot on here... but i just can't stop thinking about her.

Woo, i'm off to western illinois university tonight and ill be home late tuesday night... what a waste of two nights of my spring break. Whatever, I hope no one wants to hang out on wednesday after i'm done with work, cuz the first person i'm gonna want to see after all this crap is gonna be holly. i'm outta here, peace.

I haven't really updated in here for awhile, mostly cuz i don't have much to complain about now-a-days. I've mostly been preoccupying myself with thoughts of my newest g/f :-D. Man, i forgot how it felt to really just have someone there for you that you can just care about without all the drama and crap. I should've found a girl that i can just ( Read more... )