I'm in a pretty facked up mood right now... I'm kinda down, not really sure why. But really... I just want to be loser drunk right now. So drunk that I can't see, can't walk, can't feel, can't think... Just absolutely fucked. Screw it... I'm going to go buy liqour.

So allan told me to call him at 7, and I could show up around 7:30... I got there at 8:00. When I called at 7:00 no answer. 7:30 no answer. 8:00 called and left a message saying I was outside his house and he should pick up if he was there. Went picked up aaron and went on with my night, which included just saying fuck it and buying again ( Read more... )

So I went snowboarding today... let me tell you about some of the adventures of the day lol ( Read more... )

Theres only one thing I hate more than unreliable people... and that's unreliable people that waste my time. Some people never change... I don't know why I bothered giving him another shot at being friends. His second chance is over though... whether I do get back my stuff or not.

I'm turning into an alchoholic again... not that I really care. *shrug* I've discovered If I drink wine I feel like less of a loser than if I drink hard liquor alone hahahaha.

I'm supposed to go out tonight... but suddenly I don't really feel like it. I'm more liking the idea of drinking my tequila. mmmm tequila.

Almost the weekend... yesssss..

What would I do without friends... lol. Keeping me sane, that's for sure.

Note: These are only thoughts... while yes my brain is thinking them. I don't want someone being an idiot and doing something stupid just because they read this ( Read more... )

Well, it looks like I'm moving back to the parents house over the course of this week. I can't say I'm even remotely excited about it, but in a way, it should be good. I'll probably start looking for a place to live this january. But who knows what's going to happen at this point ( Read more... )

Woke up this morning with the feeling of no point for existance again. Oh how I missed having this re-occuring feeling... not. Some days I really feel like I have no point in life. I work to buy useless shit I don't really even care about. Not only that but I've noticed I try to get others to smoke pot... and usually succeed over time. Just so that ( Read more... )

I asked her to come over today, with the intent on saying what I said in my post. But looking at her... She knows I'm really hurt. I don't think I need to make her feel worse. I don't owe her anything and I know that... but I don't see a point in telling her.