everyone ditched me and lied and said everyone was going the fuck home, i hate people so fucking much, I was so stoked to go, and then i couldnt find shit to do for 48 hours and got sick as hell not a pluss...sigh..but at least im okay now...

tonights going to be great , im getting 20 dollars from my mom to go with bobrick, dale, mike, and pj its going to be crazyyy, ill post when i get back =] addiction day 25..=[ missing her day 112...='[ im going to die alone..i fucking miss her. what did i do, where did i fuck up....i just need to jump off a bridge...maybe its better there.

I feel as if things are going extremely well for me, I feel love is coming quite soon and thing s in college are great...

college is going well, meeting knew people and leaving the people the backstabbed me and used me behinded for a class of well civilized young adults its a good change and feels amazing.

so its 2009 , my life is looking up folks praise the lord, im chill with this new kid el from mcc maybe moving in with him, got to hang out with mackenzi finally<3 and going to mcc full time, i have a purpose im changing rearanging and forming a new chris permantly, im getting the body and mind ive always dreamt of fuck that haters and bring the ( Read more... )

my girl friend has the mind of a 12 year old and is fucking retarded, 12 years olds consist of listening to there mommie, being undecided and inconsiderate, as well as has no feels and sees shit, she complains about sex and ousoubfanjafnfgnmdafmnadsknodfkngmdaflkandmfldfkngmgolkdsnmgdsklgmdfgdklmdlfk fuck alll toof this shit i try so fucking hard ( Read more... )

ive never been so fucking scared in my entire life...i constantly feel like shes just going to randomly break up with me whenever something goes wrong........im so depressed, its not even possable. last night id never been that sad in my entire life.....not even before,...i threw up, couldnt breath, my eyes were blood shot and my heart was cold, i ( Read more... )

well here i am again....got caught in k-mart for taking yugioh cards what the fuck was i thinking , jac was fucking insane, ill never go back ill kill myself fuck that shit, royal palm is an amazing experince i think im being to parinoid about the entire money stealing shit as long as i dont do it anymore everything should be fine, i wanna get some ( Read more... )

Apparently im not good enough to be mentioned on my girl friends myspace. This entire "hidden" shit is really pissing me off hardcore and I wonder if its just an excuse. saertyaggadfdfdfhadfhahdahodijfnoisdfosno why the fuck doesn't she come to me for things but goes to others? I don't understand but its making me extremely fucking frustrated and ( Read more... )

fuck everything, fuck my feelings, fuck friendships, fuck school, fuck drugs , fuck fuck, fuck every last fucking thing on this fucking planet. Why am I working, why am I going to school, why do I fucking have so many issues, why do I constantly feel like crying, why do I hate, why do I fucking do anything anymore, my depression has grown severely ( Read more... )