wow i haven't been on LJ in FOREVER. here's a cross post i just did in myspace ( Read more... )

i'm fuckin' tired. let's see, last night was awesome. as poker night usually is. it got started a little later than usual, but that happens lately. i got second in poker, under plum. at that point i was ready for bed. it was a wine night for a lot of us, and we drank wine like it was nobody's business. howie showed up and we talked him into ( Read more... )

i'm lazy i posted some new pictures (well some are new) on my myspace blog... here's the link if anybody wants to see them that isnt on my myspace:http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog&Mytoken=B662F7D6-6B1B-

yeah last night fucking sucked. some asshole across the street decided he didnt like us, and came to my door and starting running his mouth and punched me in the mouth. I'M MISSING MY FRONT FUCKING TOOTH. oh yeah and he had a gun. and the cops didnt really do shit. other than yell at me and call me stupid and said i better watch out or i'm going to ( Read more... )

i can sit and be disappointed all day or i can say fuck it, its not worth it, this is my fucking saturday off, which i never get, and i'm going to go have fun and go camping and get out of this fucking house and this rut and whatever else. i need to go hang out w/ the damn trees. and that's what i'm going to do. i feel like shit and i'm ( Read more... )

i'm sorry that i love you...

i thought i was doing well... but then all of a sudden i realize that i'm a prisoner.. a prisoner of something i have no control over even though i thought i was free... no never. this is jsut how it is.. and it is something that i'll just have to get over. and it is something that i'll never fucking get over. fuck feelings. fuck the past. ( Read more... )

i'm not really sure who i am right now. these days. i drink almost every night. but i took 4 nights off in a row and felt really good about it. it let me feel that i'm ok without drinking. that i can still have fun and be me without it.. not that i did much. i dont do much these days. i've become a recluse. but what am i feeling right now? ( Read more... )

i'm the only one home. i have the new norma jean disc playing really loudly. i think i like it. i havn't listened to them (or their genre) in a long time. i dont know where everybody else is. probably work/school. i'm supposed to hang out with allison later tonigiht, but til then, i'm not doin shit. and i'm super bored already. i hate not ( Read more... )

a fucking mirage ( Read more... )