i'm so lost...i'm barely here.

I started serving at work last week. I work less hours and make more money, and have way more fun overall. I rule.

i love you more than i love most other boys. but i don't like your roommates anymore.

I wish I wasn't so racked with guilt. I suppose really I wish that I didn't have a reason to be racked with guilt. But I do. And I am ( Read more... )

It seems like I always come back to the stupid shit I feel bad about. Which doesn't make sense at all. I guess this is the stuff that you can't talk yourself out of with logic. And, really, things feel alright for once, so I shouldn't be worried about it. I wish I could talk without drinking, it usually causes more problems than it attempts to

sometimes i forget that i'm alive. i suppose that alive just feels like how things are, rather than one of two ways that things could be. it's dumb. i just mean that a lot of the time i am not thankful or even aware that i am alive. i'll work on it ( Read more... )

I have decided several times that I am going to start writing a journal regularly, but it just hasn't happened. I feel really busy most of the time, although I don't think I really am. At least not lately. Anyways, I think it is nice to look back on yourself and be able to remember how you felt, or see how you've grown or something of the sort ( Read more... )

I never told you, but yours was the best birthday present I got last year. I will keep it as long as I can. It is one of those things that remind me that life is good, because people like you exist.

i just want to have someone to love and someone who will love me who i think is extraordinary, who thinks i am extraordinary.

this isn't how it was supposed to be at all...