why is it that people say all this stuff and plan all this stuff that they don't plan on going thru with?! if you arent gonna do it then dont fuckin say anything! i dont see whats so damn hard about not saying anything. If you are invited to go somewhere and you don't want to, then just fucking say it and dobt let those ppl wait like asses for you ( Read more... )

why does the heart long for what it cannot have?

Wow! i actually got comments on the last one. Thanks guys but um its not a boyfriend or anything just so you guys know. If i ever act like this over a guy please slap me because i don't ever wanna be like that. Awe people care lol. love you guys.

Throughout my life there has always been that one person to bring me down, kick me when i'm down and still swore they cared. Because of that person i have so many issues and problems and stupid shit that makes me incapable of so much shit. I can't experience things as well as other people can, i guess you could say im emotionally challenged (among ( Read more... )

I know that all of this sounds really stupid but have you ever noticed that people treat their best friends or good friends as if they were in a relationship? It can make you feel quite gay if they are of the same sex. It’s like a platonic boyfriend/girlfriend. Ending those friendships is sorta like breaking up (and I know its not just me cuz a lot ( Read more... )

well i am seeing a new side of albert today. we are actually hanging out the whole day. me albert and his gf and her friend kylie are all here kicking back in corrine's casa. they are actually pretty cool and you guys know how i dont like ppl much. albert spanked me real hard and i chased him down the street yeah... today was a crazy day, it was ( Read more... )

i just spanked rudy's butt...not that it needed to be mentioned but eh i really dont know what to write. all of my "friends" are gone to hosa comp and i'm gonna be all alone with only myself which is horrible because i get on my damn nerves. and when i'm alone i just think about all the bad crap that is happening so yeah. i wonder.. are there ( Read more... )

well i'm sinking even deeper into this depression and yeah. i have no motivation and everything just keeps going to shit. i fucking hate it. and ALBERT i miss you too and i need you right now but you are never there for me so oh fucking well. i feel like i'm screaming in a room full of ppl and no one can hear me or just doesnt care to. but whatever ( Read more... )

chelsie and erika told me to update my journal so i'm doing it. i've been feeling like crap, so much so that i have no motivation to do anything so that accounts for me not writing or typing or whatever you wanna call it. hey do you guys like my new Funeral for a Friend background? did you guys ever see the shreks mom thing? if so, it was nasty huh ( Read more... )

i'm always the outsider looking in, i dont really have any friend(s) that would say i was in their "group" or "clique" or whatever you want to call it. its sorta cool because i dont have a designated group but sometimes its lonely just having me around cuz i piss myself off so much. its like that song from Green Day, blvd of broken dreams. walking ( Read more... )