I wish that there was something I could have done. I had written to him a couple of weeks ago to ask him to hang out with me once I had transferred. He never seemed like the type to do something like this. I am still in shock. I can't believe that he is no longer alive. At first, I thought it has to be someone else, some other person, but it wasn't ( Read more... )

Over the past year, I lost many friends. Many of you didn't know but my grandmother had cancer last year, my dad had three heart surgery's, and I almost hit rock bottom with depression. The only people that I really keep up with are See Hawks, who has been there for me through all of my negativeness and depression and my recent fiancee Chris ( Read more... )

HAHA I haven't written in this thing in ages, well not really. So I am back at RMWC and hating it. Women suck and this place is full of them, I keep asking myself why did I chose to come here. Other than that, I have been in a relationship for about 4 months now...in fact in two more days it will be 4 months...wow this is a record, but I really ( Read more... )

I have finally escaped the wretched claws of Science and Math. Life is brighter, Smily faces surround me (literally my roomie loves the damn things), Grass is greener. I have come to the land of milk and honey. Mountains and free cable(which is always a good thing, being that I have a television in my room), and a place where I can have men sleep ( Read more... )

We are here, at the end of our S&M journey. I will miss all of you even those who hurt me. Most of all I will miss the intellectual convo's I had with most of you (cough cough) and the great times and love we shared. I will mostly miss my best of friends, which I may never see again. I hope for the best for everyone. And whether some of you know it ( Read more... )

This is a direct LJ. People are really confused at why I post so many I HATE THE WORLD, FUCK YOU ALL, AND I HATE EVERYONE's, and I DONT CARE. I post most of this stuff to release tension, and I have embraced my anger and my complete apathy at times. Most of the things I post are not really relevant and are me just bitching about stupid crap that ( Read more... )

I have become the heartless bitch again. Its just that I am tired of caring about anything or anyone. My life has been really crazy lately and a lot of my friends have no clue what is really going on. So now, to endure the suffering, I SAY FUCK IT, and I DONT REALLY CARE. People are boring, and self-centered and I dont feel like dealing with that ( Read more... )

I take it back. My friends are there, I am just having one of those days, months, maybe even year...My life is in a funk...

It seems like everyone is around when I dont really need anyone, but when it comes to the "nitty gritty" and I am in desperate need of a friend, I cant find one. I wonder why that is????

Things are crazy, I am going insane, its quite sad. I have totally give up on caring anymore, ONE MORE MONTH OF THIS PLACE. I would love to elaborate. I could bitch about life and the unfair things, I could bitch about my past, I could bitch about family, but I think I would rather damn myself today. I am a bitch, yes it is true and most of you ( Read more... )