i am starting over. again.

and of course, with this comes new hairdye and scissors. change the outside until i can't recall where the inside begins or ends.

crystal ( Read more... )

just got back from the local college kid oriented video store (the only place i've ever been in with its own cult section). i picked up dead man for myself because something has to hold me over till i can get my fill of johnny depp in pirates of the caribbean. then i went to grab the selection for my currently crippled roommate (long backstory ( Read more... )

so much has been happening that it's not even that i don't know where to begin but if i should begin at all. why start anything when nothing is ever finished? but i need something to remind me of where i am, something i can squint at long enough that some meaning will appear. even if it's all a facade, i need that much. don't we all ( Read more... )

what to do when your tolerance has outgrown your income....what to do, what to do....

I just realized that I have a lot to say ( Read more... )

my relationship with you was like my attempt with cigarettes ( Read more... )

I’m sitting on her broken couch, snow melting in between my toes inside of my puddle-drenched shoes. Lindsay is sitting to the right of me shivering inside her thin skin and crying so hard I think I see her heart lunging through her chest. She and I are both watching him, open stares of disbelief as he stumbles through a room he should know by ( Read more... )

my clock is yawning beside me. these sheets of silver keep falling from the skies and nestling us here, tucked into sweatshirts and over-sized flannel, huddled together in smoke-filled bedrooms hidden down dark hallways. these shadows are never given enough light to find their way back home, and linger idly in these dismissed spaces where we ( Read more... )

i've been tugging at the corners of my conscience, apathetically pleading with myself to perform the prayer ritual of pen to page. but even if i weren't ignoring these pleas, would the symbols i document be cleansing, would the ink bleed me pure? would i write about the car accident we got into yesterday, how we darted out from under the ( Read more... )