I hate my sister and how she gets away with practically everything and anything when it comes to physically and mentally abusing me. I'm serious. If she hits me or is agitating me and I hit her back, I get in trouble, no matter WHAT she was doing. And the other day when I came out of the shower with only a towel wrapped around me, she came up to me ( Read more... )

I hate my mom. Why the fuck is she treating me like shit lately? What the hell have I done wrong? I'm sorry I have a fucking eating disorder, okay? I CAN'T FUCKING HELP IT!! I'm sorry I don't get straight A's and B's in TWO classes; wasn't the 97 in Biology enough, the 97 in Band? I'm sorry I have a knee problem and because I was a tomboy when I ( Read more... )

( Wow, I'm surprised at the accuracy! )

Well, I'm back down to 135. =/ My head and knee are really killing me. Nothing is working to get rid of the pains. Probably from the events of yesterday, and it didn't help that not even 3 hours after I was home, I got into an argument with my parents about Algebra 2 and I wound up crying, and when they were finished, I went into my room and ( Read more... )

Yeah, so, I didn't make it in ( Read more... )

I had course selection overview with my guidance counselor today. What. A. Fucking. Bitch. I asked if I could just stay in Algebra 2 for next year, seeing as it's a Junior class anyway, because I just can't go up to Trig/Pre-Calc and she said I can't do that. What. The. Fuck. If I can't DO a class than I OBVISOULY shouldn't be IN it, right? Fine. I ( Read more... )

I am so dirty on the inside
I am so dirty on the inside
I am so dirty on the inside...Well, up to typing Chapter 5 of my story...Only got about 10 more chapters to go, not even counting the one I'm still currently writing. THIS is why, people, you should not procrastinate for A YEAR ( Read more... )

Woo, another post in the same day! Wow. Surprising. It's just an ED survey for my own amusement, chill. And also a confession at the end of the survey, under the cut. Read it if you feel like it.

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I feel worse today. I didn't think it could get as bad as it did before, this self-hate, but I was wrong. Oh, was I ever wrong. I can't stand myself. All I keep thinking is fat, fat, gross, worthless, STOP EATING YOUR GODDAMN LUNCH, DON'T EAT THAT FUCKING KIT-KAT I DON'T FUCKING CARE HOW FUCKING HUNGRY YOU ARE FROM SCHOOL, fat, fat. And above all ( Read more... )

I drew 3 things last night, hated every single one, ripped them all in half and threw them angrily to the floor. All I've been doing since last night is continue my writing, but I even hate that. I'm in a self-despising mood right now ((heh, when I really ever not?)) and it's pretty bad this time ( Read more... )