it has been a weird and pretty awful week. the passing of my grandmother did not affect me much at all. i got to do a reading at her funeral. but oops i am not catholic so i guess i am going to hell? for not being a practicing catholic as the new priest at our church calls it. but oh well i guess. and it rained all day. i got really wet. but i ( Read more... )

think that i would have to go through four deaths in one year once again. the first time was back in 2001. my aunt two uncles, and my brother. this year once again. back in may was my pastor, my cousin (they were in the same week---i attended two funerals in two days) my aunt in october and now my great grandma. she died on thursday. and now ( Read more... )

i have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. stuff that has happened in the past year. stuff that has happened since my birthday of last year. i think that is when my life actually started going down hill for me. it really has. i have lost so much in this entire time. and nothing i have gained back. from friends to family and misc. things. i ( Read more... )

gosh i am so frustrated here at work. i am so pissed off at everyone and everything. i have these two monsters here in my class that i cant stand. they are such monsters and i hate to feel this way for the fact that half of these kids are homeless and have gone through so much. i know the situations on these two so i know why they act the way they ( Read more... )

well my aunt died yesterday. i really wanted to see her once again before she died. on monday was when she got worse. i had seen her on sunday. it was weird. it was like she was holding onto my hand. she did not let it go wehn i was saying goodbye. and she kept on looking at me. it was different. i had a feeling that she was going to die very soon ( Read more... )

well my aunt died yesterday. i really wanted to see her once again before she died. on monday was when she got worse. i had seen her on sunday. it was weird. it was like she was holding onto my hand. she did not let it go wehn i was saying goodbye. and she kept on looking at me. it was different. i had a feeling that she was going to die very soon ( Read more... )

i have had such a busy week. so far i have totaled up about 24 hours of traveling. i went to dc and came back on sun. went to alb on tues and went back to las cruces late last night just to go to work and now i am back in socorro right now. i had to drive up this weekend b/c i will be in my cousins wedding this coming month and a half. i have to ( Read more... )

well i had a fun time in dc. i did more stuff. i even got to explore the city a bit myself. so that was a bit different. but it was fun. i got to experience what it could be like if i was in a different city all by myself. something that i have wanted to do for a few years now. i just want to get up and move whre no one knows me. where i can just ( Read more... )

i am not sure on what happened on monday. but i started feeling really down. i was feeling depressed. i actually have not felt like that in such a long time. it was weird. i felt so down that i started crying. i talked to my socorro friend when i did that. i tried not to cry while i was talking to him but it just happened. and he was actually very ( Read more... )

well i went to socorro last weekend ( Read more... )