Staying home alone on a Friday ( Read more... )

uhhhh...yeah. who knows how today is going. i'm trippin out because mom and dad go to court tomorrow. whatever happens is gunna come down hard on me either way. i don't even want to talk about it. as far as the boy goes, i'm stuck. i really don't have a reason to be angry or jealous. other than he told me that he wasn't talking to her anymore. i ( Read more... )

so things are definitely a lot better now. at least i'm under the impression that they are. let's just hope my impressions are actually right this time. now the only thing i'm worried about is you leaving. part of me wants you to go so badly. only because i want you to come back. but i'm not sure what i'm going to do when i can't talk to you. you ( Read more... )

it's insane to go back and read everything i've felt in the past month. i'm such a bundle of passion i annoy myself sometimes. but today, lately, right now, i'm so confused. i'm in a position that i put myself in, and now i can't find a way out. i want so much for you to care. i want so much to know that i mean something to you. but i know that i ( Read more... )

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i miss you so much. i miss being able to talk to you about each and every little thing. i miss hearing your voice at 2 am, because you called me just cuz you were thinking about me. i miss trusting you. i miss laughing with you and wanting you. i feel betrayed. i feel defeated. i feel like there's nothing in this entire world that i could have ( Read more... )

i can't even describe what i feel right now. you lied. i can't take it. i can't believe you said all that you said and then did what you did. you're an asshole. you know it, i know it..and i hope that certain unspoken names figure it out very soon. i don't know why you spent so much time working on me. you were trying so hard to make me see things ( Read more... )

my oh my. where to start? i can't stand being trapped anymore. i can't stand being caught in the middle of all of this-being told that i am the reason for it, and i'm the only one who can do anything about it, even though we all know that i have no say anymore. i tried to let you know what i wanted, but you surpassed my wishes and catered to yours ( Read more... )

wow...everything that's gone on in my head today...i don't even know where to start. i think this is the biggest reason i want you right here by my side, right this moment. because if i have something to say, i want to say it, not have to think about it all day until i can call you. there are some things that i will wait until we're on the phone, ( Read more... )

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