exactly 8 days, 22 hours, and 52 minutes ago i wrote about my thoughts on love. eight days, twenty-two hours, and fifty-two minutes ago i didn't believe in love. i believed in what others called love as lust and infatuation, pain and torture. anyone who told me they loved me was always quickly shut down and shunned, advised never to tell me such ( Read more... )

life has been so much better lately. i have someone to think about. someone to call when i'm bored and need someone to talk to. i'm just worried that something's gunna go wrong. i mean there's not really anything going that right in order for it to go wrong, but i dunno...i'm kind of at that point where i don't know what i'm feeling i just know ( Read more... )

so today started off super duper bad. i walked outside and my car was frozen with ice. i dont know what to do with that...i live in the freaking desert. so i get a warm wash cloth...bad plan. i melt off some of the ice and then realize that the water from the cloth is now frozen on top of the ice that was already there. perfect. so i wake up dad ( Read more... )

today i learned:
-justin controls my subconcious mind....eh hem
-laura can't draw boobs
-if you cheat, you get pizza
-ms. froelich is dumb
-if you don't take a shower, everyone wants a ride
-blame everything on your neighbor
-some subs are really smart...dont trick them
-sine and cosine graphs are pretty much the same
-mr. johnson sounds like a

i've always told myself that love isn't real. there's nothing that can feel so wonderful, and be continuous for all of time. i've always believed that nothing so beautiful could ever come into existance. i still do not doubt myself in any way, but this feeling. it's more than infatuation. it's more than obsession. it's more than a crush. it won't ( Read more... )

i'm learning that worries never go away. i've been worried about the same things for months and they never ever go away. i'm stressed about school and it never goes away. i'm stressed about mom and it never goes away, it just gets worse. i'm going to miss her so much. i can't even stand thinking about her leaving. what am i going to do. she's not ( Read more... )

does anyone understand me? is there anyone in this world who truly cares enough to put their effort forth to honestly understand me? do i even understand myself? i care so much about the things that are not within my grasp. i cannot control what matters so much to me. all of my life i've been in complete and total control of my surroundings and my ( Read more... )

i just don't know what to do with myself. i love it here so much, but i can't continue to watch mom hurt like this every single day. i can't watch my dad hurt her like he is, and the thing is, i don't even think he realizes it. i thought that maybe if i talked to him, he'd have compassion and understanding, but he's just being so selfish. it's so ( Read more... )

well, i guess today is going a little better. i talked to her and she swore on her life she didn't do it. i think i believe her. i just don't understand what could've happened with the car. i didn't take it. but if she didn't either, than what the hell is different with it? i don't know...i'm still a little irritated with dad, but o well. i've been ( Read more... )

so today sucked. hard. well, i guess the first part of today went really well. we kidnapped the freshman and made them breakfast. it was way fun. and then we went to the movies and bowling with a bunch of band people. so i guess that was good. but after bowling the day went downhill so fast. i think my dad lied to me about where he was tonight. ( Read more... )