Everything is going crapply right now. well not everything but a fair bit ( Read more... )

"I don't want to live like my mother, i won't let fear rule my Life."

Damn Straight

I'm just gonna ignore the Bullshit and try to ignore the drama

cos i'm dealing with my own shit and by not dealing with it i'm letting other people help me fuck up my life.

well no more, if i can help it.

long time, i've been keeping it together during the time i haven't wriiten on here. but i'm back and in need of support of my loving, non-discrimintory Live J. Also I need to vent cos i'm gonna lose it otherwise ( Read more... )

Came back from jamaica last week ( Read more... )

I have weight loss pills

whoo hoo

11 days til i leave for jamacia

13 days till i turn 17

2 and a half weeks since i cut.

All in all not bad

i have been told by my therapist/social worker that i have a target weight loss of 2lbs a week to reach what she believes to be the perfect weight for me 154lbs ( Read more... )

thank god, i'm out of my funk, i hate being down, i prefer being like this (my don't give a fuck mood ( Read more... )

i know i sound dramatic but right now i feel like i have nobody and feel stupid because i feel like i'm the cause of having nobody, i'm pushing people away or lying to them by either telling them nothings wrong or not being truthful when they ask me but i can't bring myself to say it out loud and i won't allow myself to express my feelings ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking blank and empty with nothing to write or say.

Nothing interesting in my life, in my head.

I cut on 24th, yes correct on christmas eve, shows how excited about christmas i was, note the obivous sarcasm.

I'm so BLAH.

BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bah humbug, Bah Humbug ( Read more... )