So i have realized that I truly am stupid. A true idiot. Last week I was losing my freaking mind. My emotions were everywhere and ontop of that i sounded like an idiot to Kasey.  Sunday I woke up and felt normal. Like whatever cloud had been wrapped around my head and screwing up my thinking process was gone. Thank God. I look back at myself from ( Read more... )

One door closes, a thousand dorrs open...Now choose.

I chose a door. I chose the right door. I didn't know that i would going through such a battle along the way. These past few weeks have been hard, really really hard. The last week alone all I've been able to do is cry. Today i woke up and it was the first morning i didn't just start breaking down ( Read more... )

 I'm not doing what I should be doing right now, which is writing my English paper, but what have I been doing? Reading my 2005 archive. Mixed feelings about all of that, but atleast now I can see that it's like looking into another life, another whole world. A world that I'm no longer a part of, but because I once was I am who I am now. I'm happy ( Read more... )

 Already been a month? Feel like six months. It has been the most amazing month of my life. The day after i poured my heart out on here Kasey finally told me he wanted to be with me. It was so wonderful, after all this time waiting and waiting, going more crazy as time went. I really wasn't sue how much longer i was going to be able to keep my ( Read more... )

Ok so I know without a doubt in my mind that Kasey is going to be reading this. It's just something you can't help, right? I wrote this one thismorning, which is so embaressing, but I'll let you read because i guess it says everything. And if it freaks you out then i guess all i have to say is deal with it, cause it's all the truth. And if it ( Read more... )

Hold my hand, held my hand, OH MY GOD! So yeah spent the day with Kasey Saturday and he held my hand the whole day, kept rubbing my back, and kissed me on the forehead when he left that night.

So can i say that was the 'move'  I've been waiting for? The sign? The show of feeling? Whatever i don't care all i know is he'll be here in fifteen minutes ( Read more... )

Ok so am so so so so so so so so so so so happy right now. #1 i just found out that Cedric Diggory is going to be playing Edward in Twilight! #2 I am going Christmas shopping with Kasey and his mom tomorrow! And #3 I lost seven pounds and my bridesmaid dress for Tabie's wedding fits even more perfect than before! I even have a little wiggle room. ( Read more... )

First off, sorry Julia I didn't call you back, but my mom had a seizure Thursday night and had to be rushed to the hospital. She stopped breathing and it was very tramatic, but they are doing texts today to hopfully fix the problem. I was up all night waiting cause i had to stay home with my niece Mallory. Kasey came and stayed with just to make ( Read more... )

My life doesn't make sense at all. But for some reason thats ok...Yeah there is something wrong with me. I don't know what is going on half the time. One minute it's like this, then the next it's like, "What the crap?" So 90% of the time I'm confused, but I love that precious 10% that lingers through the day.

It's been a week a half, but it feels ( Read more... )

Matt and I broke up. Today has been the hardest, but I'm not changing my mind. I know this is for the best. I know I made the right dicision. Without a doubt in my mind I know this is what I have to do. I wasn't doing so good thismorning, but as the day has went on I've been more and more at peace with it. I'm glad, its just I have to have strength ( Read more... )