I have to be the worst person walking the earth. I know that am! I feel that I am! What is wrong with me? What am i going to do with myself? 
Well at least what i did yesterday didn't end the world. Everything was fine after class. But does that make things less complicated or more complicated? GGRRRR I don't know!

I'm confused.
The end. 

One minute I know what I'm doing, the next I have no clue. Is this hormonal? I feel kind of crazy right now. Last night was a good Halloween. I dressed up as a punk rock shool girl. I had on black capri leggins, a white knee skirt, a black Element t-shirt, a black and  dark green stripped tie, and I had green streak all through my hair. I looked ( Read more... )

I'm so disgusted with myself. I shouldn't be do this to myself. Not at all. I know picking this topic for a dumb english paper was harmless enough, but did i have to start researching for it? Go to those old communities and see all those words that used to belong to me? Read those lives that so reflect who i was? Oh God it's like this screaming ( Read more... )

I'm so confused. This weekend was amazing, but these dreams are enough to make me question my sanity. I know who i love with all my heart. There isn't anything left to me to ever give to anyone else. So what do these dreams mean?And why am i having them every night...every night? And last night was so real i woke up crying because i felt so ( Read more... )

Ok so the only reason I'm even at school today is because I was supposed to have a quiz in Art on chapters 5-7 with like almost 50 words and definitions to remember. I stayed home from church yesterday because I was (still am) sick and because I needed to work on that homework. Now I'm stuck here till 12:00 because I'm determained to stay through ( Read more... )

So this is a quickie. 
Very quick, quickie.
So i spent fall break in my pjs reading New Moon and now more than half way finished with Eclipse. Jacob kisses Bella, Bella hits face, hand broken. Priceless! That's the part i'm at right now anyways. So i've got math homework to finish in oh about two minutes and then hope in Matt's car and ride off into ( Read more... )

Yeah I know, I know I should be doing my English homework and praying really hard that i passed that Math quiz, but what am I doing? Listening to Hawk Nelson and literally jumping in my seat about the fact that i just check the UPS website tracking page on my books and it said that it's in transit as of 6:43am this morning. Which means that it ( Read more... )

So my UPS report said my books were rerouted and won't be here till tomorrow. Gosh i just hope they come early in the morning before i leave for school! I'm dying here! Anyways i've been complelling a music list for Twilight and sounds that just match the story and the mood. I know Stephenie Meyer has some which are awesome, but some new songs have ( Read more... )

So this week...I don't know. The weekend was great. Megan and I went up to Boone and went to Cheap Joe's Art Stuff and got $100 36' by 36' canvases for $19 and paint for my art project and for her painting that she has commisioned me to do. Makes me feel like a real artist now. I've never let myself really go when it comes to my art but I've now ( Read more... )