One of the weirder things I have noticed since losing my job at the women's shelter is that I am much more emotional, more prone to tears, than I have ever known myself to be. Tearing up at TV or movies used to be a reliable marker for getting my period, it was so unlike me. Now, I get teary quite easily, at unexpected things. Yesterday's Dear ( Read more... )

I believe in a multi-verse, that each decision creates a quantum split and the two or more possible choices each follow their own line of probability into a new universe. At times of immediate crisis, like skidding into a spin in a car, I can visualize the various possible outcomes splitting off, each taking their own path. I recently got the ( Read more... )

Laurel Hamilton, in her infamous Anita Blake series, calls it the "ardeur" the need for sex that overpowers the will and demands feeding, regardless of the consequences. In her books, it is a mystical infection that the heroine catches, but when she described it, I thought, damn, I've had that my whole life. Maybe this is what it is like to be a ( Read more... )

Very pleasant memories: Whipping therapy cures depression

October is the month my paid subscription needs to be renewed. It has been so long since I maintained this journal, I was contemplating simply deleting it and going with vocalgrrl, my school journal. Then i started reading it, and didn't want to lose this history of my life. Yet I fear it getting out, someone stumbling on my secret journal ( Read more... )

Long time no update. I do update vocalgrrl slightly more often, but there is just so much to do ( Read more... )

Six months after R's divorce was final, R's divorce is finally final. Mostly ( Read more... )

On January 9th, I lost the second of my three cats. He also died of kidney failure, though he went nothing like the first one. She ate everything in sight, took her medication, fought and struggled and lived six months or so after her diagnosis. The second one just gave up. He would not eat, just slept the days away. Three weeks after his ( Read more... )

How's this for weird? R found out from his birth mom that her ancestry is Irish and French. Not so strange in the grand scheme of things, except that it is almost identical to my father's. My father's mother was French Canadian, but still. What are the odds ( Read more... )

I often tell young people (anyone under 29) "I'm old, I still have a LiveJournal." They mostly look at me funny, never having heard of LJ, which proves my point and is why it amuses me to say this.

I don't have a MySpace page and the first time I went to YouTube, it was to see this. The shorter one is my father. The cruise was a family trip, ( Read more... )