I keep dreaming that this was just some nightmare my mind made up... that one day he's just going to come home and it will all be ok... It's setting in that this is for real this time and the pain only gets worse....

Yesterday pete broke up with me... today I can barely function... though I am not 100% surprised... I had these nagging feelings like he didnt love me anymore, but trying to learn from past mistakes, I decided to ignore those insecurities and work on our relationship... He tells me that what I considered a big change (my schedule finally going back ( Read more... )

Ugh... The actual fulltime baker got fired on monday by the owner of our franchise... That makes 2 people in the past month he has actually fired... normally he just tells the manager to do it... anyway she told him she didn't care if he thought she should be cleaning the parking lot or taking care of customers... He told her to go... that's what I ( Read more... )

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last night, early this morning sucked... Up puking... then woke up to find out I was supposed to be in at 4am not 6... oh well I called out anyway... by then I had 2 hrs of much interrupted sleep... feeling a little better but fearing the first bit of food after giving it all to the toilet... and then some .... <3 to dry heave ><;;;

I had lots of fun tonight with Kristy,Jess, and Will in Providence... way too tired to explain right now... Just know some people got offended, jess learned how use a dog poop bag, random tweeked out girl baah'd at us, and there were ass cookies... pics and more when Kristy sends them to me ^_^

the other day my new bike's front tire exploded on me... luckily i stopped before it happened... I brought it back to wal-mart... only problem is I took off the stickers... ><;;... the first guy was treating me like shit... saying he couldn't do shit for me... he decided to put a warning out over the walkie about me... That worked against him as ( Read more... )

it's too late for me to post what i want to say tonight... so look for it tomorrow... el oh el

so I wake up today -good ( Read more... )

so yea... recently I have been putting a lot of thought into moving away... far away from NE... I told peteR and he isn't too keen on the idea... he doesn't feel right leaving his mother behind like that... Don't get me wrong... I wasn't all for it at first either... I worried about how people would feel... what I would be leaving behind... I never ( Read more... )