My violin broke on Tuesday. It was exciting. I wasn't actually playing at the time, it was up on my shoulder but I was leaning with my elbows on my knees to looking closely at the music in front of me. There was then a CRACK!! and out of the corner of my eye I saw the tailpiece dangling out in front of my violin. I didn't look down right away, ( Read more... )

I'm in a mood that makes me want to punch and/or kick everything, especially solid things that would make me hurt ( Read more... )

What a great lesson. I really played the shit out of the Beethoven. Vitek asked if I wanted to play badminton afterwards when we were walking downstairs, he said 'after a lesson such as this it seems a good thing to do.' I agree with you Mr. Vitek. I hope I didn't use up all my music today (and in rehearsal later), so I still play good tomorrow ( Read more... )

An average man's body weighing ten stone is constructed of enough water to fill a ten gallon barrel; enough fat for seven bars of soap; of carbon sufficient for 9,000 lead pencils, and of phosphorus to make 2,200 match heads; enough magnesium to provide one dose of salts; iron to make one medium sized nail; lime to whitewash a chicken coop; ( Read more... )

Expectations are important things. Especially ones that you have for yourself. They are most likely causing you to not live up to your potential. I just found an expectation that I have for myself, that there's only so much that I can do in a day. Putting a limit on how much I expect out of myself has been causing me to live up to that limit ( Read more... )

There's something so vital about allowing yourself to sink into something, to completely enter a new world and trust that you'll be okay. I just spent an hour sinking into the adagio of the Barber string quartet, melancholy and patient and bursting at the seams with love.

I'm wondering: is music really the field where I should make my living? There is so much competition and a shrinking demand for musicians. Visiting the doctor's office made me realize how many crappy nurses and nurses aids there are, at just about every office or hospital I've been to there have been more nurses to watch yourself around then ( Read more... )

Feeling unmotivated today. I've lost more weight. Maybe my doctor's appointment on Monday will reveal something. I cleaned two cast iron frying pans and a large wok after lunch, perfect timing, so simple and satisfying. Just finished reading and admiring the beautiful drawings in 'Dinotopia'. The guy below me is listening to the radio, some ( Read more... )

Handed a plate ( Read more... )

I have a great fear that I've just figured out, I'm desperatly afraid of being 'blah', of blending in with the crowd. I want to be exceptional, subtle, in love.