So we all know what a joy my mother is. she loves me i get that and she really does care......but its time to pull your head out of the fucking sand. two items are up for rant today so bare with me....

Mom gets told that ryan has gout...first words out of her mouth are "well i guess you better stop all the drinking"..............................
So ( Read more... )

so i don't know where to even begin. Donovan has been enrolled in pingree since October of last year and it has been the best place for him. now we are scrambling to fix things so he can stay within a week. the changes he has had while being there are fantastic and i really really really really dont want to pull him out and start the whole thing ( Read more... )

My thoughts are filled with someone i lost almost 6 years ago...i cant help but wonder why now. Why is this affecting me so much right now. Whats going on that would bring this up so fully.

so as far as Donovan's schooling goes he is doing really well. They love him there and he loves to be there I'm glad that the therapists working with him are good at what they do. He is starting to enjoy the park when they take him so that's good.
As far as changes i have noticed he has been a lot better at eye contact and will actually drag you to ( Read more... )

so life is good things are great and im listening to songs i havent listened to in years.....thats when it hits me. i miss my music...i miss the feeling of being on stage. i miss feeling the energy of a crowd all directed at me and the group im in. i miss picking apart music till i know it inside and out. every twist, every turn, everything its ( Read more... )

There are good days when i know he loves me and i know he will be ok...Then there are days where he is so shut down that i wonder if he will ever get better or if the time will come where i cant care for him and he will have to be locked up somewhere ( Read more... )

so i open my thing to write and get a 404 - not found error in my text box... WTF anyway on to the stuff ( Read more... )

i cant believe how much better i feel now that i'm at home. coalville is always not as fun as home but this last few weeks have been extra hard. My dad found out he has lymphoma im pretty sure its not one of the horrible cancers...all the emotions tied up in that house is enough to kill me especially since no one is really talking about stuff. my ( Read more... )

so my dad had surgery last friday they found a growth in his testicle that managed to grow 3 times the size in 3 weeks. today he had 3 ct scans one for his pelvis, abdomen, and chest. we get to find out if it spread anywhere and if it is indeed cancer.  life is interesting

Have i not had my full share of hardship...........will i ever be able to rest and enjoy life again..............will my cheeks ever stop being stained with tears............how am i suppose to fix everything when you don't give me time to work on fixing myself.............is happiness to much to ask for......... will there be a point in time where ( Read more... )