so everything was in the ditch there for a while i was in a depressed state i get those a lot i just want to be left alone and lock my self in my room and not talk to anyone. I had a dream that mr kitty died it was so sad i cryed really hard in my sleep my eyes were poofy in the morning but yea im just happy he is still alive. sometimes i think i ( Read more... )

well 2004 is almost over and i must say i cant wait this year really sucked for me with my parents splitting up and the shit i went through but im going into the new year with a postive attitude and everyone else should to... sorry that sounded like a cheesy afternoon special..he he........ anyways im getting fucked up tonight along with the rest ( Read more... )

hmmmm well yea im at cindys right now everything is great and something smells good hehe well yea so everythings been alright i have been very tired this mono is kicking my ass it comes and goes as it pleases i hate mono. schools been fine i have been trying to figure out what im gonna do with my future and yea im gonna go to a community college ( Read more... )

so thanksgiving was a drag i try to put a positive outlook on it but when i got there i realized why i hate thanksgiving so much.....because i hate my family ok and this is why my cousin brett who used to be my favorit got this girlfriend and now he is an ass and doesnt talk to me the only thing he said was "i got a 250" like i give a shit about a ( Read more... )

yea we still have no internet which isnt that bad just sucks when im bored but hmmmm..everythings goin alright school has still been a pain in my ass but we are at least done with life on the colored line so that takes one of the reading things off my shoulders but yea i finished life on the colored line yesturday it was really a pretty good book ( Read more... )

so hmmm lifes been pretty good everythings goin good with everyone yea the only problem i have been havin is with school i have to read three things right now so that has been fuckin me over and i have been having to write a lot of essays wich i dont mind because i really like to write but anyways  i got really pissed off today when i got my report ( Read more... )

ok so yea things are a lot different now i like this guy C.J. now i started to realize what kinda croud brandon was goin with witch is a crowd that wants to be the major bad asses and drugies and im not up for that because im trying to bring up my grades and stay low on the drugs because i cant mess up anymore my 9th grade year i didnt care and ( Read more... )

so yea we are having computer problems again this time we have the internet but our computer is just fucked up my mom said she might take it in and have people check it out see whats goin on u know all that good shit... so yea progress has been made with brandon we have been talkin more so this might all just go slow and everything might all work ( Read more... )

today started out pretty good me and cindy were walkin down the bridge and then brandon said hi and i was like hey how are ya and he said good blah blah and he asked cindy if she wanted to hit his cig because u know i had already had one in my hand and just got done with it and cindys like no im allergic and his face man he looked like he felt like ( Read more... )

im really lonely right now josh and cindy are at the fair i wish i was with them but no my back just had to really hurt today every time something fun comes up there is always something wrong with me and im sick of it........ my sister with kevin why i dont know she needs to just get rid of him or something..... my moms at work and my dad is here ( Read more... )