I dreamt last night that I was part of a colony. Like ants we would build towers and with a series of pulleys and rigs would lift food high into the tallest rooms. We had no rights and we had no time to think for working so hard. But we had a sense that we were safe here and anywhere outside the colony was dangerous and terrible. Rumors began to ( Read more... )

 A tree is waiting for me as I wander down a muddy path, I feel simultaneously useless and lucid. Like a baby. When I find it I can't decide whether its worth climbing or walking on. Finally I decide because a book is also waiting for me. And the ground is wet and I hardly ever read standing up. Perched there seems awfully poetic. Sickeningly so. ( Read more... )

Headdress-Amazing Baby ( Read more... )

I drank 4 cups of tea today and still counting ( Read more... )

 So lets talk about Saturday night. Yes lets ( Read more... )

 Last nights' entry sounded a lot like an essay. A sloppy sort of stream of consciousness essay with only four paragraphs but an essay none the less.  I am starting to miss school just a little. Emphasis on just a little. Its more like I sometimes need that motivation of being forced to read a book that has changed the face of literary history ( ( Read more... )

 I am trying to decide if my vanity is getting the best of me. The other night I was pondering whether I truly appreciate any women my age or if I am always in internal competition with them. Especially in the theater world. If I hear of someone's success through the grapevine or first hand my automatic reaction is intense jealousy. But this ( Read more... )

I am quitting cold turkey. I swear to god he is like a drug. While I am with him I am desperate to quit. As soon as I stop I break out in cold sweat and chills and want him again. Just say No. I am tracking my progress from here on out ( Read more... )

We slept in a sticky sweet mess of desperation last night. Clutching each other so tightly there was no room for air in our lungs. There was no room for anything but each other and fear and something like love. I love the song in Hedwig and the Angry Inch about how people were once a whole in pairs. And since we have been broken to part we are ( Read more... )

Went to a little bar called Ravenous in town last night. There is a bartender there who amanda and i think is adorable, oops i forgot the capital A. He comes into the grocery store i work at alot because the bar is right around the corner. anyway its a really sweet little place. They have these lamps that glow orange and they are wrought with iron ( Read more... )