this past week i've tried to do nothing except push everyone away as far as i could (well, and homework). i don't know why exactly. maybe because everyone adds to my stress more than i'd like them to. even elisha sitting in here being herself adds to my stress ( Read more... )

i've been finding myself getting very nervous and skeptical about my major. i get really excited about biology and medical terminology, and i'm really good at both of them if i just pay attention, but i don't know. i just don't really know how i feel about it anymore. anything that i really want to do, like really want to do, i can't because i won' ( Read more... )

i'm sorry i've had a quiet mind lately. i just don't feel much like talking.. like normal i guess. i dunno. it's still hard work to talk about my feelings.

reading back over what i wrote in my last entry it might have sounded like i don't want to see you, but i was really only implying that i don't want to try to do anything this week that i'm not required to try to do. i love being with you and i was definitely not saying that i don't want to spend time with you. i love you.

i don't want to have to try and talk about my feelings this week. i don't want to have to try to do anything besides homework or go to class.

well that's cool! make me feel like shit for barely hanging out with you, yeah, and then after i cancel other plans to be with you just go right ahead and forget 10 minutes after we make them and invite someone else over. that's not a douche bag move. i really don't feel insignificant. asshole.

i feel very overwhelmed. i just have so much to do. it's not even too much for me to handle, i just can't get myself motivated and then it all gets backed up and i don't even know. today i have three classes all stupidly spaced an hour apart, i have to hang out with chango, i have a quiz in med. term., i need to find time to hang out with adam ( Read more... )

doesn't remind me - audioslave ( Read more... )

today a snowflake landed in my eyelashes. it made me smile. then it started snowing harder. egh... that's not what i was implying, mother nature.

i feel so much better after letting you in.

the way you smell lingers on me. i should be able to sleep well.

i'm sorry i blinded you this morning but i am sooo not sorry for opening those blinds. the sun is beautiful! did you not feel the warmth of it? it's one of my favorite feelings in the world.