I find myself listening to love/heartbreak songs lately. The weird part is that I feel as if I can relate to each one...but I have no love interest, unrequited or otherwise. It's like I want somebody to fill in the blank of the songs ( Read more... )

I come to the surface about once a day ( Read more... )

TWO POSTS IN ONE DAY -- LUCKY ( Read more... )

The theory and the practice rarely, if ever, appease each other. Therein lies my problem ( Read more... )

It's a very odd feeling watching yourself fall from grace. I read some of the posts (on here, xanga, or my paper journal) from my past and I remember how I used to be so emotional and sincere. Now I am cynical and, at best, emotionally cautious but moreso emotionally distant ( Read more... )

Than name a month after my race ( Read more... )

Has anyone else heard this song, yet? I think Plain White T's is going to become one of my favorite bands. Not only is this song absolutely hilarious, but they also have a black drummer! And before people start reading into this, let me just say that I don't actually hate Melanie (or any of my ex's); I don't even not like her (sorry Holly for the ( Read more... )

Today has been harder than most but I suppose that is to be expected. For a few days there, I was doing well. I was actually able to fall asleep in my own bed on Sunday night. For the past few weeks, if I wanted any sleep at all I had to sleep on the futon watching tv. My bed is just too full of memories with her...the first night we spent together ( Read more... )

My Dearest Melanie ( Read more... )

i am running out of ideas. everything i try to do leaves little, if any, lasting impression on her. i love her so much but i can't make her see it. i don't want to believe that she has no feelings for me anymore. she keeps saying "friends" and everytime it's like a dagger in my heart. i know this other guy, this arturo, can't possibly compare to me ( Read more... )