i'm gonna start using pawky_aubade again, my old journal.

stuff i wanna do before i go back or whatever ( Read more... )

ahh i am so frustrated. after weeks of constant off and on and hurtful behavior and fights, i left to visit my family and we left saying i'd come back and we'd keep trying. but ever since i've been here it's been all me calling and writing, and i understand he doesn't have internet in the house or money to buy calling cards, plus it's way cheaper ( Read more... )

well i didn't really miss him and then the phone call made it way worse. i don't know what to do, but i want to avoid old habits.

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barcelona is turning me into even more of a grandma than i already was. i bake banana bread and embroider listening to the folk music the squat radio station plays. my housemates drink 50 cent litres of beer while i put up the big bucks for the classy 2.5 euro bottles of red wine. i take the bus to the beach with carissa, stick my toes in the cool ( Read more... )

i made this list of "things i want to do in this life" when i was with my family in ireland in august 2000 (making it the year i turned 15). we all made one. this was mine, ( embarrassingly verbatim )

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Chiquitita, you and I know ( Read more... )

it's been gorgeous, breezy, warm, and clear. i've been indoors working too much. i feel bad going to the y because it's so nice out, but i think it will stay this way for a few more months now. i am saving money. i don't know what for. maybe going back to mexico, though i don't think i'll get a plane ticket this time. i'm still there in my mind. ( Read more... )