Well i had to stop taking my painkillers, because it was making me sick and nauseas. My face is swollen up like a goddamn balloon. Third day out of school. Finally got cigarettes, risking dry shockets, but its worth it. Everyone calls me chip cause i look like a damn chipmunk. Im going to post a picture, so i can be pointed at and laughed at, well ( Read more... )

I just moved from my living room couch, back downstairs to my room, and i realized how weird it was that i sat upstairs for the past 2-3 hours pretending that i was asleep. No one was there to watch me, because well everyone one else was asleep. I dont know, it was mostly, because i was thinking, and i thought if i act like im sleeping maybe ill ( Read more... )

Theres this girl that i know, and well she knows me too, and i want to know her kiss. But she doesnt know that. Should i tell her, or should i keep it to myself. Should i try, or should i not (to avoid failure.) Want to hold my hand, i dont bite. You can taste these cigarette staind lips and this love starved tongue. I promise i will make it worth ( Read more... )

 I've just constructed a beautiful piece of art. An elaborate scene of a teenagers lost hopes. A monument to ones lonely night.

Theres nothing even beautiful about it, its a shitty picture taken with no effort, but i had to capture this moment... and im not one to take pictures.. so the quality is just shit.

The date for my wisdom teeth removal ( Read more... )

...guitar string just snapped. dont have money to replace it. now what is there to do but just sit here.

Shitty day at school, no paticular reason, except for the fact that i bring myself down.

tomorrow i get to wake up early and get my other two wisdom teeth removed.

had a conversation with my art history teacher. I asked him what i could do ( Read more... )

Are you ever utterly disgusted with the reflection that you see in the mirror? Portray yourself as a worthless piece of shit, totally hating your self-image. Trying to hide yourself under clothing that would best keep from drawing any attention to yourself so that no one will notice, so that you wont even notice yourself. Scared to look in the ( Read more... )

Havent really written much past couple of weeks, back at school, same old shit. Oh well. Went and got some sushi tonite with matt, chatted with the sushi chef for a while, could barely understand him, but it was all good. He gave us a free salmon egg sushi it was alright, i wouldnt get that regularly, but it was alright. I want someone, i want a ( Read more... )

i just wish i could say, "i cant do this anymore." and drop everything, but i guess its not that easy.

If anyone wants to do anything, just give me a call... because im not doing shit and i cant sit here anymore.

well i found the new love of my life, sorry mandy, but you just got booted... this chick smokes. Shannyn Sossamon...damn. Just thought everyone should know, im out. love.


( Read more... )

I feel that im going to have to prepare myself for another sleepless night. I know its only 10 40, but i just dont feel like im going to bea able to sleep. because its one of those nights where i can't stop thinking. I can lay in my bed for hours, thinking and thinking, and well its just gets me no where... but makes me completely restless. But oh ( Read more... )