bored and stiff as a statue and I know I have to respond to whats going on around me

my eyes roll into the back of my head, I try to speak but nothing comes out, I try to scream but only swarms of flies pour out

I have really taken human affection for granted when I had it ( Read more... )

the shit hits the fan the sequal ( Read more... )

"...these fears that fell to my lot out of every day stirred a hundred other fears, and they stood up in me against me and agreed among themselves, and I couldn't get beyond them. In striving to form them, I came to work creatively on them ; instead of making them into things of my will, I only gave them a life of their own which they turned ( Read more... )

Ive had a couple of weird dreams last night, thats right there were intervals in between in which i was awake ( Read more... )

i cant believe it but it actually all makes some sense, maybe its better to just get overthis now then get hurt in the process later ( Read more... )

asshole, i cant wait to see the look on his face when she rejects his stupid ass

you make me scream so hard into tear drenched pillows, and clench my fists and beat them against the wall just enough so that the tv on the other side still drowns out most of the sound, then i think of you before i fall asleep, and those same tender words that make me want to choke back vomit lull me into stupor. Why cant you be mine? (HOW GAY WAS ( Read more... )

ive been doing lots of adderall to keep myself up and keep the overbearing lonely feelings at bay and its been working...i guess there is more to live for than i thought

im getting delirious from the heavy nauseating sinking wrenching gut busting feeling in the pit of my stomach, I dont care if I heal right now, I wouldnt even miss the pain