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i am doing better i think. i havent talked to dave since the 31st. i really dont know. he really hurt my feelings. and im not going to get into it. i miss having someone to talk to tho. idk if u noticed but im really not online anywhere near as much as i used to be. i just dont have anyone to talk to when i am online. but i guess i should change ( Read more... )

i got a new cell phone woohoo. i hate rumors!! dave's sister heard stuff from someone about me and dave and things we did and it really got me upset. i dont understand why i have to be someone elses conversation. im not that interesting and even if i was why dont u talk about something thats true? or that u know is a fact.? and before you go and ( Read more... )

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he broke up with me. its over. he needed more time for himself which i understand but he was my first love. i mean its hard i feel like crap... i just cant believe its over, i really never felt like this about anybody and i swore i would never let him go. but what am i going to say? "NO you are going to be my boyfriend and u will like it"? i feel ( Read more... )

okay so today is the ides of march.and i feel like it is ironic that i had such a lousy day today of all days. i dont want to get into it. but i feel like im being used. and that im not cared about as much as i thought i was. im not saying who i think this is. and dont jump to conclusions... but if you care about it show it especially right now ( Read more... )

so friday was the mil. ball, i had a blast i danced a lot surprisingly. i met this cool kid matt and he kinda grinded with dave which was a little scary but it was funny. he seems like a cool kid and then today in gym he was like not saying hi and i didnt even recognize him with out his uniform on. im such a dork. monday was mine and dave's 1 month ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in a long time partially because if u dont know whats going on in my life then ur not talking to me and if ur not talking to me that means that we're probably not friends and u could be some 80 yr old man who i'm making get off on his overdose of viagra ( Read more... )

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okay so after i got home from my date monday i was thrilled and then my grandpa called and apparently there was very bad news. and his companion of 10 years that he lived with after my grandma died had passed away. and she was really the closest thing i ever had to a normal grandma. so it was pretty depressing. i mean she has been struggling for a ( Read more... )