sometimes I feel like this is all too much to handle. This world is crazy and I have no control over anything that happens. I miss you more than anything. It's really weird how sometimes a day, or maybe even two, can pass and I won't actively think of you. And then another day will come along and I won't be able to handle it. At all. For no reason ( Read more... )

sometimes, i get intense needs for things i know i should not have. like right now. i have not in sooo long, and i know that it would be best if i didn't and that i would get alot of crap from people if i did, but my head really feels funny and i know it will help. I think that is the worst part. the knowing, but not being able to do anything about ( Read more... )

sometimes, life hates me. like right now.

so apparently i am the one who everyone is going to turn to to bitch about everyone else. i don't want to hear the drama, or everyone complaining about the other people they are with. especially if it is about liz. i know that all of us have been affected by this, and that no one is okay right now. but that gives them no right to throw me there. ( Read more... )

today was the benefit show for circle k. so i got to go listen to bands playing. soooo good. loved it. as always. got a new CD. probably shouldn't have. i really need to save my money. but i'm a sucker for muscic. and they were really good. and the Cd is really good because you can hear the vocals better. which always happens, but still. something ( Read more... )

my fingers are still crossed. and i don't know what to do. because right now, it's almost like i can close my eyes and it will go away. but in reality, i know it's there. and i don't want it to be. but the fact that it doesn't feel like it makes it easier. yet harder at the same time, because i refuse to move on. as long as there is a glimmer of ( Read more... )

Girl when I look at you ( Read more... )

what am i doing?? and how long can i stay this way?? uuuggghhhh... i absolutely hate indecision. when it is in other people. ya, i'm a hypocrite. sue me. but this is serious. this is people's lives hanging in the balance ( Read more... )

almost exactly two years ago this same thing happened. but there was a huge difference. i didn't care. i knew i would be fine, and probably better off. that's not to say it was easy. it wasn't. but it was nowhere near this bad. i didn't care to go back there then. and back there was only a few months before ( Read more... )

I read your letter ( Read more... )