I miss Jason. It sucks, seems like everyday I get closer to him, which wouldn't be a bad thing but I want him here all the time, I guess I want some quality time to lay in bed and hold eachother like we used to do when we lived at the apartment. Listening to music in the dark crying on and off. I loved it. But the damn iPod player is in storage... ( Read more... )

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Oh so Im baaack! Yah I know I'm watching Living Lohan and its pissing me the FUUUCK off. This Dina Lohan lady really thinks shes something hot. And it trips me out. Infact I hope the bitch reads this! Ha, seeing where as she googles herself every morning. Pathetic, if she was a real celebrity she wouldn't have time to care about that shit. And I ( Read more... )

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So today was a good day. I woke up next to Samuel and watched him sleep for a little while before taking a shower and then enevidably cleaning my house. {-the kitchen}. I fought with Ryan breifly, thats always a nice way to start the day. But all things aside I am happy. Me n J Tutt were big blowin eariler. <3 Just wanted an excuse to say big ( Read more... )

So I am sitting in bed dying. My kidney is absolutly killing me. Ok combonation of kidney + stummy + UTI = kill me now. maybe if i lay down some more and let the IBprofen/antibiotic kick in.

AHHHH!

Ok, so I have a lot on my mind. This are crazy right now. Yet oddly calm. Kind of in the way that the eye of a hurricane is. All around you is nothing but chaos but in the eye of the storm everything is eriely relaxed. Just waiting for the shit to break loose or hit the fan ( Read more... )

Wow I love panic! at the disco ( Read more... )

SO me and ryan fought tonight. i think for the last time. its so frustrating to look at him do nothing with his life and slowly drag mine down. evidently he spoke with my mom about such things and that really fuckin pisses me off ( Read more... )

Well no one came out for Ryans birthday. Were sitting at home and the house is stale with dissapointment. Neither one of us want to say anything for fear that we may upset the other. It is just another shitfest. I went to the Clinique counter and the girl told me I had dead skin cell build up on my face bad. That upset me. So now Im kind of ( Read more... )