I look back on all my previous posts and am disappointed how my writings are so greatly influenced by the current men in my life.  Except for the writings about Danny... because I still feel so strongly for him.  Perhaps it's fabricated, but it's a very intense fantasy ( Read more... )

Angie, Acura's daytime receptionist had this for me to read and I love it!  I wanted to put it somewhere where I'd always have it, not just email... Which is why I'm posting on my livejournal for the first time in almost a year!

The Blessing of Unanswered Prayers
I asked for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to ( Read more... )

I tell my mum about georgi, makes plans with him to spend time at his apartment, ok'd by my mum.... she changes mind and things get cancelled.
Saw for an hour at apt.

Tonight, 9/20 we are going to the gwinnett county fair with the rest of the bulgarians and I'm very excited - I just don't want to get too cold!!!!  We should be able to take lots of ( Read more... )

From 8-21-2007:
Can't sleep really-
Feel like I have to take a poop but obviously get "pooping" anxiety when I get on the toilet because I haven't gone.  I have peed about 800 times though.  It's uncomfortable to write in bed - moving to desk.  Went pee, got to desk, realize I am kind of tired but I'll try to do a little free assoc. writing before I ( Read more... )

I was questioned tonight about the meaning of my name... I sort of knew the story but couldn't really tell it.  So tonight I'm posting what the Bible actually says about Rachael... From the New Living Translation.  And in the NLT they spell my name "Rachel" but I'm sure I'll end up typing out how I spell my name.
This is my summarized version of it:
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Things with my BBGG are fan-tastic.  Yesterday we laid on his bed and listened to music, looked at pictures of Bulgaria, took pictures and kissed... a lot... He And I love him.  We talked on the phone for an hour last night about randomness.... I didn't understand most of what he said... that's ok... it was late. 
I want to keep everything down on ( Read more... )

Blagh - I need to write, to vent some of this anger out but writing things down takes up too much time and I am at one of those points where I just have to word vomit this stuff out.

First - I tend to be a fragile person.  I walk around completely put together, it seems, but it doesn't take much for me to crack.  I'm a little over sensitive and take ( Read more... )

(By Portia Nelson)

I.
I walk down the street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in
I am lost... I am helpless
                                      It isn't my fault
It takes forever to find a way out

II.
I walk down the same street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I pretend I don't see it
I fall in again
I can't believe I am in the same place
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I'm not an alcoholic ( Read more... )

Not only have I been purging the bad substances and bad influences from my life, I've also decided that any guy I've ever come into contact with has got to go as well ( Read more... )