wow. i havent written in here in forever. guess it doesnt matter though. today i started realizing that some of the feelings i have arent very good. i dont know what to do about them though. i love him so much, so why am i having feelings for another guy. i dont think they are even true feelings, i could never see myself with him, but there's just ( Read more... )

well things have gotten so much better between us..its awesome and im so happy. of course there are still the little things that bother me but i think that there are those in every relationship. i guess the main thing is stil the fact that i feel so unimportant and annoying whenever he is with his friends. he says that he doesnt get annoyed with me ( Read more... )

i dont see things with him working out for much longer. im sick of getting my feelings hurt and then saying its ok..because its really not. i want to be happy. why have things changed so much? he used to be the only person on this entire planet that could make me happy. i havent been happy in a long time but i keep fooling myself into thinking that ( Read more... )

wow i havent written in a really long time. ive had no time to do anything..plus nobody reads this so whats the point? i guess its just more for me to be able to write everything down. i need to do this more often..it helps to get everything out. things have been crazy...lots of stuff has happened since the last time i posted. things with jake are ( Read more... )

well i was in an awful mood today. i dont really even know why. everything just seemed to really frustrate me and i got so mad about it. i'm really mad that i cant go to the Copeland, The Working Title, Mae, and Lovedrug show on the 27th...stupid volleyball. which by the way, is going awful. It kinda sucks when the coach tells you that you are on ( Read more... )

well, i think the first day of school sucks even more when you have a lot of older friends that ask you how school was (snickering while they do). i was really kinda looking forward to going back to school, i was running out of things to occupy myself with during the summer and i was getting to the point where i thought school had the possibility ( Read more... )

wow..i cant believe school is starting tomorrow. i am ready for it in a way but definitely not in other ways. i had a really great summer with my friends. so many people were gone at different times though, it seems like we never did something with all of us together. thats ok though. things have changed...wow. not necessarily in a bad way, i guess ( Read more... )