finals week is wrapping up. an entire semester has gone by in what seems like a matter of minutes. it's been, of course, an emotional and academic roller coaster, though for the first time i feel very confident in my future--my career, my goals, my first apartment. life just seems to speed up the older i get, which means that these ( Read more... )

so this summer is, well, it's blah. i spend most of my time thinking about the things that i want/need to do when i get back to the city and a lot of time setting up a life plan for myself. this life plan, if all goes well, seems pretty realistic to me and makes me somewhat excited for my future in publishing, for my desire to become a bona fide ( Read more... )

my new home, sort of. so as most of the readers of my LJ know, my wonderful aunt and uncle love on the wonderful island of amelia in the not so wonderful state of florida. anyway, i come down here every now and then because i honestly feel as though my aunt and uncle are my real, secret parents. my dad stole me from my aunt, and she never knew ( Read more... )

so by accident i clicked some random button on my toolbar and an email account that had a ton of wonderful emails from the summer before college and the first months of nyu. there were, of course, a lot of really amazing emails from david. that was the time when we talked almost everyday and i worried a lot about him and his well-being. there ( Read more... )

so i'm (we're) finally back from europe, which was amazing, but exhausting and i'm really glad to be back in the city, though i'm suffering from severe anxiety about school, about my life, about my future. while in europe, and most specifically florence (which, by the way, was the most amazingly beautiful place that i've ever been) i spent a lot ( Read more... )

last night we had a mixer with the lambdas. one of them asked me if a had a boyfriend, and when i told him that i didn't, he asked why. i told him that i didn't know and he said that i should. it's strange, really, to have a near complete stranger tell me what i should be doing in my life, and it made me start to think. to really start to think ( Read more... )

to jump on the bandwagon:


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so i'm back in new york, which is always a nice feeling. in a strange way i feel like it gives me more perspective on my family and my home; it makes me appreciate it so much more. i talked to my dad for a long time today, which is nice. i'm glad to realize that my relationship with him really is strong and that i can talk to him in ways that i ( Read more... )

in exactly one week i will be in new york and things will be back to "normal". i say this and am greatly excited about this for mostly one reason: courtney has moved back home. it's really strange how her presence in the house can always cause so much tension and how it just generally makes me feel uncomfortable. i don't know. i love courtney; ( Read more... )

i spent a lot of last week watching college bowl games which was really strange because i haven't watched football in a long time and it seems that once it was a big part of my life. i mean in high school i would watch it a lot on saturday afternoons. when my uncle was the head coach at north carolina state we watched a lot, cringed a lot as ( Read more... )