For the past, i have no idea how long, i've been observing people around me. their flaws, their ticks, weaknesses, strengths, the whole ordeal. and to be completely honest the entire human race is so severly fucked, im not sure if anything can reverse it, or if any catalyst can change things... people will sit and lie straight to your face, and ( Read more... )

i hate the way im feling right now. i'd kill to fall asleep, and actually sleep. i have this persistent headache that wont leave me the hell alone, no matter the drugs i take to try and make it.... more in a lil

Sick... As Always... Dont you wish you were a diseased kid too? girr...so. yes. my mom is royally pissing me off lately, but ofcourse thats nothing new... i love how she pretends to care. even better, she goes and spends near $300 on douglas the day after he gets back and about another $300 since, and yet she owes me $500 and "can't come up with it ( Read more... )

damn... i get home today to find that my mom "straightened up" meaning that she went through all my stuff and "cleaned" my room, threw everything in my closet, but any ways... thats not the point... i looked out my window which i never do, and happened to see ben's favorite hat hanging on my bed post... great... so i call him, he usually never ( Read more... )

blah...what a shitty past two weeks... any hoe... moving on... people are really getting on my nerves lately, i dunno if its just me or what.... w/e any ways.... i found some old pictures of derek,cat, julia and me yesterday. i went through them and you can just watch the decline... im not going to go there, but anyways.... yea, not much to say i ( Read more... )

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

im gonna go w/ lock me the fuck up... n e one agree?!?!?!

my dad's moving back w/ my lil bro, which only spells trouble... it also means that i am going to have to give up the beautifull-ness that is my room.he'll be here tomorrow.. a day i dont want to come ( Read more... )

i can very unsafe-ly say that i am on the verge of emotional collapse, i hate feeling this way... i didnt want to break up and i hope he knows that if he were to call and ask me out or even imply going back out, i wouldnt hesitate... and thats probably the closeest to the truth i can get... but, there is some one that has been in front of me the ( Read more... )

i hate this... i feel like shit... i didnt want us to break up, i wanted the complete opposite! i really hope something gets sorted out, even if its just me getting to talk to him, maybe getting the nerve to sort things out myself...i think when friday comes around, my life is going to be chaos... and on top of everything, that's the day my dad and ( Read more... )

A day short of a month, it's over. peachy fucking keen... dont worry.... the real kris is back...bitter and bitchier then ever.... and, i have come to some harsh terms... so be prepared everyone lol. all i have to say is that things are going to start changing... and fuck n e one who tries to stop me... im gonna go people... peace love happiness ( Read more... )