heylo people... blah... my mother's drunk and wont shut up. but anyways... i dunno whats up... ive been going out w/ ben for three weeks, or atleast its what my calender is telling me... yes... i need to talk to him though... alone. theres shit we need to work out. there's things he's just not letting roll outta his mouth. all in time i suppose. ( Read more... )

Gir... hehe, the past few weeks have been fucking un believable... i haven tupdated because me lovely (not) mother insists of me staying at the house that has no internet...(mentally kills me) but, anyways.... lets do an update... i dunno where i left off... wow... that was quite a while ago... yes... my life has changed majorly since then. i find ( Read more... )

to all of those who are asses that seem to think im after their "men" ... Go Fuck yourselves. over the past 3 weeks i have been getting shit from these stupid ass chicks @ school because they think that i like the same guy that they do. not only do i not think of these boys as anything but friends, i am absolutely crazy about a different person, ( Read more... )

I feel so fucking giddy. like i was, no make that am, so unbelievably happy. I dont fucking care about stereo types... im not going to change for anyone but myself... for the first time in what seems like ages someone likes me for me ( Read more... )

Piff! Well, Bill asked me back out, just like david said he would and i accepted, after hanging up on him, in tears. this is a big mistake. i told him that and he said he didnt care if it was... well, im no longer single again... shouldnt i be happy? well, maybe in time...

Ouch! i hurt. ALOT! this was the most painfull and insane four days in my life... almost *thinks back to this summer w/ my ex* lets see... thursday... derek, amber and myself left at 1 and started our long journey to orlando. we stopped at a rest stop to get gas. amber and me decided to get some food, only to come back to a very impatient derek ( Read more... )

AAAAhhhh! i was really sick today, and im still a lil dizzy, but w/e. i cant wait... less then 24 hours i will be hearing marilyn manson live! eeep! so happy! hehe. then i (hopefully) get to see the guy i like on friday... i really like him, i get all shy and i blush like crazy when im around him. i feel so stupid. blah. ne ways... sat is bakesale ( Read more... )

Wow. i had an awesome fucking night, and it hardly had anything to do with jason. *smiles* i havent been able to get this really retarded looking smile off my face since when lauren and me started walking to my house last night. im such a fuck up. i cant remember the last time i was shy around a guy. i mean, i kissed him on the cheek last night ( Read more... )

i am so fucking confused, i have this guy who seemed nice at first but now it's like he's obsessed! here's bits of our convo ( Read more... )

well, yesterday was my birthday, and it was pretty cool, better then my past b.days. man, i seriously have to pick myself off the ground. ive been going crazy lately, but im getting better. the manson concert...8 more days... i cant wait... it's going to be mad fucking crazy. not much to say. peace. thanks to kerr and jess taking me shopping ( Read more... )