Hatred is a horrible feeling. It seems to be something that can eat you from the inside out. It's even more agrivating when all you want to do is let it go but, for some reason you can't. I think hatred by and large is just a by-product of pain, either by physical or emotional. It is a hurt that is unceasing in it's impact on our lives. ( Read more... )

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I'm not sure what it is about hospitals that I hate so much. They are the most uncomfortable places to be in. They always seem to me to be some sort of cold, surreal, setting with their boring hues of white, cream, and those small specks of color on the curtains and gowns. Perhaps it is like an airport in some ways. You either hate them or love ( Read more... )

As a child we pick them up gleefully and bask in the shine of the copper reflecting the light in our warm little hands. We sometimes would sing that chant, "Find a penny pick it up and all day you'll have good luck!" or on a more superstitious note we would go by the heads up good luck tails up bad luck. All of it was children's games, even if ( Read more... )

I've recently been dealing with an issue I don't understand how to overcome. I don't typically like to go in depth on the subject of my childhood and the atrocity that occured back then but... it is interfering in my sex life. The problem I am having is the reocurring flash of that blue windbreaker being held over my face and that horrible ( Read more... )

I called animal services today to report a case of neglect at a stable. I've never done anything like that before but, with all the showing ribs, grossly protruding hip bones, and sunken necks even on some babies I felt it was definitly my duty. Evidently, it isn't the first call they've had regarding them as the woman on the phone said "ohhhh, ( Read more... )

After much contemplation I often agree with the thought that we are no more then the sum of parts of the people whom we have known through our lives. I can inwardly view pieces of my mother, my grandmother, and friends I've known in my travels. There is still that core of us that seems untainted by the touch of any other but, the majority really ( Read more... )

I just made a $150 mistake. Fuckkkk!!! There is nothing like forgetfulness to bite you in the ass on a Monday. Why $150?..because that is what Dr. simmons charges if you miss a scheduled session. I cancelled all other appointments with her. I was going to anyway but, alas I forgot I was scheduled for 7:30 this morning. Grrrrrrr!!!

I curl my body tightly up and bury my fingers into his warm black fur. I'm awake but, on this morning I hold him a little tighter a little closer, burying my face into the back of his kitty neck. I lay there so thankful for him and listen to the soft murmur of his breaths and feel the light vibrations from his purr as I slowly stroke his fur and ( Read more... )

Some days I wake up and I feel a restlessness. I find myself wanting to walk between the street and the sidewalk just to kick at the scattered leaves in their fall colored hues and the debris of printed newspapers that collect there till a streetsweeper erases their existance from memory. I wrap a brightly colored scarf around my throat but, ( Read more... )