I'm back to where I was about 4 years ago. I'm guessing this happens every time one makes a big move. I've been thinking of Boone as home and I've been thinking of the people there as my people. But it's not and they're not, at least not anymore. It makes me sad and kinda lonely, but I know there's possibility here. I've been really reluctant ( Read more... )

I've become one of those people who says "Holy shit, today has been fucking TERRIBLE! I can't wait to go to the gym!" Today was the most hectic days in the history of days for me. I got so overwhelmed with high-priority things that I nearly cried several times today, but had to remain cheerful on the phone. (BTW, this has virtually nothing to ( Read more... )

So today marks 1 month of the day Abby broke up with me. It should be a terrible day. It started off pretty bad. I was kinda depressed - not necessarily about it being 1 month since, but other things, too. I was just generally down this morning. I've been down all month, really. I've been able to muddle through, been able to have pleasant ( Read more... )

I know change is a bad thing ( Read more... )

I have so much on my mind right now, but it doesn't really stick around. It's like my mind is a lazy river - thoughts linger for a short while, then completely slip away, and occasionally return for another short while. It makes it hard to process things. At the same time, though, I feel like I'm constantly in my head rather than being in the ( Read more... )

One thing I really want to start working on is being more laid-back and less high-strung. I don't want to worry about things as though they're going to be the end of the world if they turn out wrong. It's true that this kind of attitude often acts as motivation, but it often gets unhealthy. I am also aware of my occasional unnecessary ( Read more... )

It's interesting to me how amazingly therapeutic a meeting of the minds can be. This has been happening to me a lot lately. My friends have been able to commiserate with me and to show me that, while my situation is unique, I am by no means alone. Abby and I have been able to talk and, I think, agree on more than I expected, which is incredible ( Read more... )

Today was a very difficult day. It's Wednesday, which means that things were already going to be crazy, but several other things were working against me. The first is that we're recruiting for several big positions, which means that there are a lot more people coming through the office in general. Jaclyn and Kristina were at a job fair today, ( Read more... )

So last night I finally got up the motivation to email a couple of people to start putting myself out there. One thing I don't know if I've said on here is that, well, I can't stay away from school. I've applied as a graduate non-degree student at UT. I want to just take one course to help me meet people and keep my mind sharp. I haven't been ( Read more... )

So I had no idea what might come of it, and I thought it might be a terrible idea, but I didn't care. Abby and I were able to speak tonight on the phone. For about 2 hours. I was able to get some questions answered and was better able to come to terms with the idea that some questions just will not be answered, because neither of us understand ( Read more... )