This weekend was incredible. It gave me a lot of the things I needed to progress through this. Spending time with friends, people who love and care about me, was worth more than I can say. I worked some things out, processed some things, managed to act normal for a while, and got really really drunk. My friends are amazing ( Read more... )

I've still been having a terrible time. I was better able to hide it at work today, but I still feel the same way I did last night. I'm breaking down in more ways than one. I'm terribly good at holding grudges - I always have been - but my resolve on this particular one is crumbling...I'm angry, but that is dissipating and real anguish and... ( Read more... )

FUUUUUUUUCK!!!!

I wish I could talk to her
I wish I could hug her
I wish she missed me
I wish she cared about me

I FUCKING HATE THIS!!

Things seem to be getting worse. I had no good moments at all. Today I did something at work that I promised myself I wouldn't do. I started tearing up. I didn't break out into a full-out cry, but I came really close. I really intensely didn't want to do this. I didn't want to show my weakness to those I work with, and I really didn't want to ( Read more... )

After a really incredibly shitty day with no normality or goodness at all, my evening managed not to suck out loud and in fact to turn out some good moments. I went to get my haircut and was pretty determined to get rid of a lot of length, but still being unsure exactly what I wanted to do. Without knowing my emotional state, the woman who cut my ( Read more... )

Even among a large group of people, I am so incredibly lonely, and I dread even going to lunch because that means I will have to be alone for real. While I used to enjoy moments of solitude, now I face them with intense fear. And I can't help but think how incredibly unfair it is that this Boone-union is going to happen without me. It seems so ( Read more... )

But please please please tell me this was all just some terrible dream ( Read more... )

How have you all dealt with a broken heart? I need help with this.

I keep on waking up and thinking it was just a dream and then realizing the horrible truth...So unfair.

I've been lied to from the beginning. Last night was one of the worst of my life. I thought I was a better judge of character. It's over.

I may or may not be coming to Boone still. I'm not sure.